Nyx Thalassa Void

i’m blocking everything out again. i’m getting worse and idk how to stop it 

Red rover red rover run me the fuck over

...yup i’m getting worse. i was hoping i wouldn’t be during this bs but i am

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH
          YOU HAVE FAILED ME JUDGES YOU HAVE FAILED ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW DARE YOU KEEP THAT FUCKING CONDESCENDING LITTLE SHITBAG WHO HAS HIS HEAD SO FAR UP HIS OWN ASS THAT HE THINKS EVERYTHING HE DOES IS ‘AMAZING’ AND ‘INSPIRATIONAL’ AND ‘NEVER BEEN DONE BEFORE’ EVEN THOUGH 99% OF HIS FUCKING DESIGNS ARE SO OBVIOUSLY INSPIRED BY ACTUAL FAMOUS FASION DESIGNERS SO MUCH SO THAT THEY ALL LOOK LIKE OTHER DESIGNERS PIECES!!!!!! AND YET YOU KEEP HIM INSTEAD OF A FUCKING DESIGNER WHO ACTUALLY HAS HIS OWN THOUGHTS AND IDEAS AND THEY DONT LOOK FUCKING MATRONLY OR OLD OR ALREADY DONE BEFORE!!!!!!! 2 OUT OF THREE IS NOT ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

BukkitBrown is proud of me ;~; <3 

i was scrolling through my for you page on tiktok and i was trying to scroll up to the next video but both my thumb and my phone decided they were going onto the page of the current person on my for you page and follow them. i don’t think i’ve seen any of this persons videos or duets or anything but i decided i would just keep scrolling and unfollow them later...... i don’t know who i accidently followed now. 

I was so excited for halloween this year. I had everything I wanted to do, I had my costume all picked out and ready as well as everyone I wanted to be with on halloween and literally everything turned to shit and none of it happened. I’ve never been so bored and sad on halloween. At least I found out My Chemical Romance is having at least 1 concert even if it’s in LA. I hope everyones halloween has been better then mine.

So I’m deep cleaning my room and have been for about an hour and a half to two hours at this point because I don’t clean my room almost ever. I finished actually cleaning it and now I’m just organizing listening to music not paying attention to anything  and I turn around to find one of my cats and got very shocked and excited and immediately sat down to pet him. I get really excited anytime I see any of my cats and I usually call them baby instead of their name. Then I started thinking about how much I love him and how long he’s been with me. (he’s 13 and I’ve had them since I was around 7. I’m 20 now) I just started bawling thinking about how much I love him. How can something like him exist?! He’s extremely soft, fluffy, loving, he helps me with my depressive episodes and he’s just overall adorable and perfect. This was a lot longer than I thought it’d be but I just really fucking adore my baby 

One second please, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Thank you, continue.

I really just want to cut all my hair off. I don’t know what to do...I’ve never had this feeling before (my hair goes past the middle of my back so it’d be a really big change)