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Erros in balance shift has a lot of big feelings.
First of all, being a major god, he feels a need to protect everything that's under his jurisdiction and the fact that he couldn't and the fact that it resulted in BALANCESHIFT, arguably one of the worst routes, something that Glitch would remember forever, something his fucking children have to go through, he would almost go insane of guilt, it would eat at him, keep him awake at night, the fact that he failed at being a god so badly that now poor innocent children are dying, yet alone HATING him, because of his own poor foresight, it would tear him up, but he would also have to stand strong and hold on while the cult is under full blown attack. He'd have to save face in front of all of the children under his and Ceno's protection and that would KILL him on the inside and he already knew Nightmare was a terrible father, but finding out that he had pushed his children to the brink, to the idea of MURDER, it would've kept him awake for many a night. He'd never recover, seeing his own son turn to the brink of insanity much less actually delving into insanity. He'd never recover. He's a flawed person who's most of the time not that great, but he has his heart in the right place (Albeit with some godly uncaringness)