@DeathQueen5 I'm deeply sorry for your loss, loosing a family member is never easy and you never heal from it, what you can do is that you need to properly mourn for them, it could take days, weeks, months, but no matter how long, you need to grieve over them, then appreciate them being in your life, their stories. I know how it is to lost a family member, I lost my grandpa this year, and it certainly wasn't easy, but that's how it is, loosing a loved one is never easy, so take your time to mourn over them and move forward not only for yourself, but for your loved ones too