Ruizusan
Author-san, I'm so sorry to hear this from you.... I know that having a depression is really hard and difficult, and it takes time to heal that pain... I know it because I have a friend that has a depression, and it hurts for me to see them being like that, suffering and committing something that shouldn't be done. I also know that you needed time for yourself, and that you needed rest. So please take all your time that you need...
And I just want you to remember that your life is precious, and that you should cherish it. We may face difficulties in our lives, but we should know that they are the things that makes us stronger, that helps us become better. Yes, it's true that sometimes we need to rest from these obstacles, but we shouldn't just give up, and that we shouldn't give up on life. You only have life once, don't make yourself regret it. Fight and face your enemy, and if you think you can't beat it on your own, remember, there are always people that are right there to fight with you. You are not alone, all of us are not alone. We may think and say that we are alone, but the truth is, there are always people out there that loves you & cares for you. There are people that are waiting for you to call out to them. Just like they say, “No man is an island”. We can't face our problems alone, and there's always a person out there that are right besides us when we need them. We may push them away, but some will always stay and break that shell that's keeping you, the shell that lets you suffer and suffocated.
Ruizusan
Won't you feel bad? Won't you regret it? Remember, you can't go back to the past. You can't change back what you had done. But....You can still fix it, and find the results of it. That's why there is a Past, to realize our mistakes and learn our lessons, a Present, to fix and get better, and Future, to see our results in our lives. Don't you wanna see the results of your life? The award that is waiting for you right out there. Life is all about living, and what I meant about living is 'living your life.' And it is a wonderful and an amazing gift.
Please, I give this advice to you as a person, and as a friend, don't give up. Have hope, and live your life. :)
Ruizusan
@Ruizusan Keeping your feelings is not helping, your only making it worse. Because your just compiling your sufferings, making it bigger and more painful. When you are ready, talk to someone that you trust, your family, your best friend. If you can't, write all of the things that are in your mind. Let it all out on the paper. If that didn't help, go to the sea, the hill, and scream out, louder as you can, let everything out. Even if the others think that you look crazy and kinda stupid, don't mind them because they don't know nothing. And if that didn't help also, cry, we may be strong but sometimes, there are times that we are weak, and that is not a bad thing. And if it comes to the point of committing, ask yourself.... Is it worth it?.... taking your own life, your one very own life for just a depression? Life is still long, and what we are experiencing now is just a trial. Notice that in every problems that we encountered and we faced, there are always great and good things we experience. Don't think of the negatives in life, what about the positives? Your good and wonderful memories, experiences. And what about the people around you? The people that care and loves you? What will they think if you are gone? They will think its their fault, and will only blame for themselves because they didn't save their loved one, they didn't have the chance to save them. And if that happens, what will be next? They will be depressed, and the cycle goes on.
