Deedee143SKZ

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I fucking hate having ADHD. I'm staring at messages, notifications, emails, homework, and I'm screaming at myself that I need to do something, I need to reply, but I can't. I physically, genuinely can't. The other day, I spent four hours learning how to apply eyeliner perfectly and how to contour my face to look more masculine, and I didn't have to think about motivation at all. Then I saw a notification from Wattpad, I opened it, and Martha had posted a new chapter. I couldn't look at it. I really, desperately wanted to open it, but it felt like even that was too much effort. I saw a notification from someone who has been here for me since I joined Wattpad, telling me they were in a war zone, and I didn’t. Fucking. Reply. I didnt say anything. And I hated myself for it. Honestly, I'm scared there's something else besides the ADHD, because I've had that all my life and it's never been this bad. 
          	@slayywithkpop I'm sorry, baby, I've been completely ghosting you. I love you.
          	@LunaIzzy1 I hope you're okay, angel, I really do. If you are, then I'm so so happy for you. If you're not, then I'm praying for you every day. I love you. 
          	@felix_andalso_yogurt I'm so, so sorry, Martha. I swear I am. I really hope you can forgive me for almost never replying and try to understand how hard this is. I am in no way making excuses, and I promise to try and read the newest chapters of Childhood Best Friend. I love your characters so damn much. I love you. 
          	@Aura_Rash_radicals Hey baby. I hope youre doing well. I love you.
          	@anyonewhosreadingmyfanfic I don't know how many people actually are reading my fanfic, but if you are, then I have no idea when the next chapters will be released. I'll try as hard as I possibly can to write some soon. I love you too.

KPOPmultistan-alina

@KPOPmultistan-alina and I meant I hate myself but hope you won't hate yourself, pleaseee don't 
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KPOPmultistan-alina

@Deedee143SKZ  it's okay babe , you don't have to force yourself to reply , don't hate yourself, even though I do, just know that I'll always love you as your wattpad gf . Love you 
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felix_andalso_yogurt

@Deedee143SKZ oh, please dont worry. Childhood Best Friend is something I write for entertainment. I love it and people seem to love it as well. Its not even close to be your responsibility to read the new chapters. You do it if you want, you do it if you can. Of course, I love all the comments and support you give me and I'm truly grateful, but if you suddently dont want to read anymore or if you cant for some reason, I'm not gonna force you and I don't want you to feel like you owe me an apology. Please take care of yourself first, that's what I'm asking. Childhood Best Friend will be here, available for you to read whenever you feel like it. ♡♡♡
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KPOPmultistan-alina

Hellaurrrrrr jagiyaaaa❤️❤️

KPOPmultistan-alina

Btw how did you get Ur gf??? 
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KPOPmultistan-alina

Love you too jagiya............
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KPOPmultistan-alina

Please tell me Ur okay T-T I'm getting worried I keep on checking to see if you texted please be okay stay healthy. I know I'm not good with words but please bear with me T-T

KPOPmultistan-alina

I LOVE YOU TOOO ❤️❤️
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Deedee143SKZ

@KPOPmultistan-alina awe you're so sweet jagii I love youuuuu
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KPOPmultistan-alina

@KPOPmultistan-alina I kinda realised that you cried, pls don't cry, your pretty eyes will hurt ( I think I'm obsessed with Ur eyes babe)
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KPOPmultistan-alina

Hope you didn't forget me?? T-T......but anyways please stay healthy, avoid bad company and eat well , remember to smile too, just know that I love you, and you don't have to force yourself to reply to this , just hope you see this message and don't hate yourself. Love you

felix_andalso_yogurt

How have you been lovely? :)

Deedee143SKZ

@felix_andalso_yogurt thank you angelll, u tooooo ꒰⁠⑅⁠ᵕ⁠༚⁠ᵕ⁠꒱⁠˖⁠♡
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Deedee143SKZ

@felix_andalso_yogurt I don't really know to be honest lolll sort of absolutely awful but great at the same time idk how to explain it
            You're actually so nice for checking in though I love you (⁠っ⁠.⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)⁠っ
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felix_andalso_yogurt

@Deedee143SKZ take care love 
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Deedee143SKZ

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I fucking hate having ADHD. I'm staring at messages, notifications, emails, homework, and I'm screaming at myself that I need to do something, I need to reply, but I can't. I physically, genuinely can't. The other day, I spent four hours learning how to apply eyeliner perfectly and how to contour my face to look more masculine, and I didn't have to think about motivation at all. Then I saw a notification from Wattpad, I opened it, and Martha had posted a new chapter. I couldn't look at it. I really, desperately wanted to open it, but it felt like even that was too much effort. I saw a notification from someone who has been here for me since I joined Wattpad, telling me they were in a war zone, and I didn’t. Fucking. Reply. I didnt say anything. And I hated myself for it. Honestly, I'm scared there's something else besides the ADHD, because I've had that all my life and it's never been this bad. 
          @slayywithkpop I'm sorry, baby, I've been completely ghosting you. I love you.
          @LunaIzzy1 I hope you're okay, angel, I really do. If you are, then I'm so so happy for you. If you're not, then I'm praying for you every day. I love you. 
          @felix_andalso_yogurt I'm so, so sorry, Martha. I swear I am. I really hope you can forgive me for almost never replying and try to understand how hard this is. I am in no way making excuses, and I promise to try and read the newest chapters of Childhood Best Friend. I love your characters so damn much. I love you. 
          @Aura_Rash_radicals Hey baby. I hope youre doing well. I love you.
          @anyonewhosreadingmyfanfic I don't know how many people actually are reading my fanfic, but if you are, then I have no idea when the next chapters will be released. I'll try as hard as I possibly can to write some soon. I love you too.

KPOPmultistan-alina

@KPOPmultistan-alina and I meant I hate myself but hope you won't hate yourself, pleaseee don't 
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KPOPmultistan-alina

@Deedee143SKZ  it's okay babe , you don't have to force yourself to reply , don't hate yourself, even though I do, just know that I'll always love you as your wattpad gf . Love you 
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felix_andalso_yogurt

@Deedee143SKZ oh, please dont worry. Childhood Best Friend is something I write for entertainment. I love it and people seem to love it as well. Its not even close to be your responsibility to read the new chapters. You do it if you want, you do it if you can. Of course, I love all the comments and support you give me and I'm truly grateful, but if you suddently dont want to read anymore or if you cant for some reason, I'm not gonna force you and I don't want you to feel like you owe me an apology. Please take care of yourself first, that's what I'm asking. Childhood Best Friend will be here, available for you to read whenever you feel like it. ♡♡♡
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jacklyn094

Heyooo!! Thank you for adding my story to your reading list!! Hope you enjoy!! <3

jacklyn094

@jacklyn094 thank u so much!! Tho i don't read stories but I'll try to read urs!! (Hope it has a good ending) Or I can suggest u to my friends!! 
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Deedee143SKZ

@jacklyn094 aw you're so sweet lmao, I'll read it as soon as I can, it sounds really good! Would you consider reading my hyunlix fanfic too? :3
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LunaIzzy1

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Hiii! How are you @Deedee143SKZ ? I posted this on my message board, but I want to post it here so that you know. I'm not trying to be an attention seeker, it's the truth.
          
          
          
          
          
          Okay, it’s not a fucking joke anymore. I’m crying, I’m hysterical, I’m scared. We just received three national emergency alerts telling us to stay indoors until danger has passed. The country I’m living in has shut down their airspace. The countries near us have been bombed or intercepted it. My country also intercepted some air missiles. I’m trying to calm my mother down, tell my father to stop telling her worse news and explaining to my brother why there are fireworks outside. I’m fucking scared. If I do not respond to anything for over two weeks just know.
          1) I have no WiFi 
          2) I don’t have my phone
          3) I’m six feet under
          Please, continue to message in this board, it keeps my mind off things. And please, take care of yourselves, I won’t be able to scold you when I’m gone! <3
          ~Luna