DefNotObsessed

Sorry about the last few posts being really depressing, I really wanted to make a statement about some of the stuff I did in 2020. (POSTS UNDERNEATH) I still feel awful about all of it, and wanted to apologize properly for it. I'll get back to regular stuff after this, sorry about that.

DefNotObsessed

Sorry about the last few posts being really depressing, I really wanted to make a statement about some of the stuff I did in 2020. (POSTS UNDERNEATH) I still feel awful about all of it, and wanted to apologize properly for it. I'll get back to regular stuff after this, sorry about that.

DefNotObsessed

sorry for some reason I can't post comments on pc, same tw for lolicon
          
          -and I do not make these kinds of characters that are overly childish anymore. I do not, and have never, supported lolicon content. I genuinely did not understand what I was doing at all, and even if I was young, it's not really an excuse. (I'm also not using autism as an excuse, it's more of an explanation of how I would miss social cues, and this really did fly over my head at 12.) Again, it's fully understandable if you cannot forgive me for this, though please understand that I was a child making a stupid mistake. I'll repeat it again, I DO NOT SUPPORT LOLICON, OR ANYTHING REMOTELY PEDOPHILLIC. I NEVER HAVE. I'm truly sorry for making these mistakes, and not understanding the gravity of what I was doing.

DefNotObsessed

PART 2, TW LOLICON
          
          Another thing I wanted to address was some of my old characters, more specifically, Lylac. If you don't know who this is, she was a sona that I recycled into an oc, that I basically shipped with Rick. In 2020, I liked sfw Nekopara, a show that I have since realized is a lolicon. I didn't realize at the time, I only enjoyed the sfw because I had a repulsion to anything sexual. The reason I mention this is because my favorite character was Chocola, a character that looks, sounds, and behaves childlike. I didn't make the connection when I was younger that she was made like that on purpose, and sexualized in the game and most merchandise. My 12 year old brain just thought she was cute, and the reason I even mention her is because I took a lot of inspiration from her to make Lylac.
          
          Lylac was a very typical catgirl oc, who was frequently babied and acted like a child in most gacha/art I'd depict her in. I didn't realize at the time how this would come off, and how she was unintentionally lolibait. The character also wore a school uniform and pigtails, which I had also given to her sister, and I just thought was cute. Lylac and her sister Moonlight were never sexualized, and the characters had a repulsion like myself, but it's still bad. I have since redesigned and rewritten both characters entirely, removing anything childlike from their appearances and personalities. I drew Lylac's old design a few times since,  along with her sister, but changed both to look far more mature and less like the original.
          
          I would like to apologize for unknowingly exposing viewers/readers to lolicon content, as well as creating a character that completely unintentionally came off as lolibait. I was 12, again, and had no idea the connotations of what I was talking about or drawing (I'm also autistic and didn't get the hint.) Even if I never posted anything sexual, other than making jokes, I feel awful for this, and it's still bad. I'm very sorry for this- (cont in coms)

DefNotObsessed

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TW S/A, INSENSITIVE JOKES
          
          I absolutely hated the first apology/response I did to this a few years ago, so I wanted to post a new one. I deleted the old one btw.
          
          Back in 2020, I was 11-12, and for a period of a few months, I would make horrifically insensitive "jokes" about a character named M2 raping M1.  After a few months of these jokes, I took down everything I had made, and apologized. Since my old books are down, I wanted to post another.
          
          This period of time involved someone far older than me posting rape fanfiction of the two, and normalizing jokes about SA and rape to me and my other friends.  I won't get into it, but I want to say that I was 11-12 when this was going on, and this stuff had been normalized to me by this person. For a period of time after too, on my old tiktok, some of my jokes bordered on SA, because I still didn't fully understand the harm of what I was doing. I was still 12 at this point.
          
          I no longer believe any joke about sa or rape is funny, and I have not made any since. I hold so much guilt for the things I said back then, and I am truly sorry. Me being 12 years old still doesn't and can't excuse the comments I made. Despite how long ago it was, you are free to not forgive me, but please understand that I have grown a lot as a person since.

DefNotObsessed

HII holy balls I haven't used this acc in forever
          
          So I'm reviving/redoing this whole acc so I can post my CURRENT writing bc it's gotten a lot better since 2020/2021
          
          Gonna keep the old user for a while so ppl remember who I am and bc wattpad won't let me CHANGE IT ;-;
          
          OH and btw HI OLD FOLLOWERS I WAS THAT 12 YR OLD THAT WROTE ABT TWISTED DOCTOR AND RICK AND MORTY