Deil4yla

I've been feeling under the weather these past few days because of the side effects of my meds; but I'm just editing some chapters for NDSS. I'm not that confident right now if I'll post them tonight.

"Nag Dahil Sa Selpon" was originally be posted before midnight but I had other plans (to catch some Zzz's.) But maybe later, I'll post a new update since the main characters/ship in the story are currently sailingggg.

Wowowowowow, who knew that after an hour of breaking down while chugging a 5 full cups of coffee would actually motivates me to post/update ALL OF MY ONGOING STORIES ALL AT ONCE?! Even I'm more surprised as you are HAHA. Might as well use this once in a blue moon opportunity to continue to draft my new next story that I will published soon. (Take note that 2 of the story that I've posted were impromptu. YES IMPROMPTU!!!) I hope that I won't crashed out so quickly. And I think I found myself a strategy to cure my writer's block...niceeee!!!!

To my surprise, I'm gaining back my spark to draw and write again.... :)

Arghhh it's passed 1 AM and my mind is fully awake...I have a bad feeling that this lack of sleep MAY cause me to be forgetful or worse... may SLIGHTLY make me insane later at school...yes.
          
          And the famous song that's been booming up in social media nowadays... (the song is called Multo by Cup of Joe) that hits hard so badly that I could imagine that song to be my next plot for my new story...? Since school break is just around a corner, I might reconsider to start drafting this. Am I am so glad that there is a similar draft from my spotify playlist that I've just RANDOMLY made fits in with the song.
          
          I just hope that I'll remember this silly plan of mine later (speaking of my "short term memory that is fast as lightning" gurlie.)

Just finished taking an exam for a scholarship. And that experience was insane! I barely study because our finals had just recently ended, then the next fay (which is today) was for that scholarship....and believe me, I was so frustrated earlier because I can recall the topics in the following questions but the detailed memories of those topics in my mind were all blurr. Arghhh!!! And I am not that even confident ni almost all of my answers there.
          
          And right now, I'm trying to gaslighting myself that even tho that I had not reviewed the topics that well, I'll still manage to joinnin that scholarship...but deep inside, I am sure that I won't pass...but that's okay, I believe that it's just life, we would not reach success if we won't start from losing and learn from those mistakes.

Waaaaa I was sooo close in finishing the physical book that I just bought almost a month ago (even though that I've already finished reading that AU in the Twt app but of couse there are still more detailed narrations and new characters and scenes added in the physical book) And I can't help but not to read then entirely because I was soooo invested in that story....And hoping that the book two of that will soon be published (but I know that the book 2 would be released next year or another next next year.)

Might delete this later but its funny that everytime I created/posted in the "Randomatic - Dramatic Poems" it became my sanctuary. Like almost all of my inner screams, sadness and unsaid thoughts that I don't want to tell to my friends or even to my close friends on what was really happening to their "life saver" friend. Silently bawling my eyes out while trying not to make a noise that would wake up her grandmother beside our shared bed; trying her best to  clearly the words on the keyboard on my phone despite of my continuous tearsLike her fingers would act as they have their own life. Letting them touch and swiftly create words that would lift up the unbearable heaviness deep down inside my heart.
          
          I certainly wish one day, I'll bump into myself and have her on how she puts other's needs and concerns first, then next is hers. 
          

Waahhhh I'm really itching to post some new stories and continuations of "Nang Dahil Sa Cellphone AU." And the caffeine adrenaline that flows through me is really something else tonight!! Should I let my intrusive thoughts win this time?

Hellow fellow reader! I'll published a new story (but technically it's one of my old AU in twitter/x) tonight! I'm planning to published it fully but I guess that's not gonna happen today due to important happningz so instead of a one shot AU, I'll be adding some more chapters to it! Wish me luck to continue adding more chapters to this story and hoping that this won't end up to my old previous on-going stories that I've posted in my Twitter account for a year and two