Deleaiqy

every time i think i'm better i always end up here lol i don't fucking know anymore. everything's different but nothing changed

tears streaming down my face whole body shaking byut hey i have assignments due at 11:59 my crying session can wait

my ass gotta act normal now that i just got indirectly yelled at

sick man im Gonna be supressinb my traumatic event fir the next 5 hours now

ugghaaghh now Im stressed abt this summer school program im taking to push myself a little ahead in my classes, despite NOT GIVING A FLYING FUCK ABOUT IT!!!!

seeing housing prices skyrocket makes me wanna kms cause I Know damn well even if i were to get a steady, efficient and good income Job, i will still need to live under my parents’ roof

my dad: youre so much better than your brother, at least you havent spent all of your money
          
          my ass knowing damn well i'll need to buy a new ipad soon

looked at myself in the mirror today, and for once i didnt hate myself :) happy

hahaha i have so many things i want to work on yet my mind and hands just. dont want to do them!
          
          i swear to god i am trying everything to focus but aaaa its not working >< i have the motivation i just dont have the ability to enact it !! sigh, but hey if i get enough motivation i may be able to stick it through enough :)

lowkey kinda sad cause i used my money for an overpriced pop it in one of those Toy capsule gacha machines When I realized there were other machines with a cool looking plastic Fish in it D;