@Dementamania
Just disappointed. I feel nothing else. No more or less. Not even replaying it in my head. A stupid hope he’d call or message once more but then I say what? He knows what he did that’s why he hasn’t. I’m just stuck with the truth of reality and sitting in it. I was to roll up. I want to blink a tear out but I just remain still in my semi warm spot I’ve molded into and just stare into abyss. Even losing focus on typing as I start to stare into space and my eyes veer off or together.
"You think you've seen her naked because she took her clothes off? Tell me about her dreams. Tell me what breaks her heart. What is she passionate about, and what makes her cry? Tell me about her childhood. Better yet, tell me one story about her that you're not in. You've seen her skin, and you've touched her body.
But... you still know as much about her as a book you once found, but never got around to opening."
Worship of the Female-Form, c. 1912, by Alméry Lobel-Riche
You just ever realize how not okay you are?
I’m at a standstill. I’m 21. I’m figuring myself out. I’m a Leo so we’re dramatic... I feel like I’m lost.
I’m drunk. I don’t want to feel but I read. Ink on paper is like bleeding through ink. Only you get you... on you understand you.... on you know how you feel & able to express it discreetly
Give a man a mask & he’ll reveal him true self.
I knew when I first started writing to just stay on my path & do what I said I was going to do. Everything I planned too & wanted to. No social media, no boys, no procrastinating. I should’ve stayed on here, interacted more with you guys & myself. I lost it all now. Ever since I never listened to myself.... I don’t know what I’ve been listening to but I know now I have to reverse everything again. I’ve never felt so lost before bc I’m usually set & know what I want but bc I haven’t... it’s left me impulsive & now it’s left me rock bottom & feeling worthless.
I have to do heavy editing on my stories so I’ll be taking most of them down for now. I’ve been in a terrible blah & writers block. Then with this all being when I was younger, most likely might change the story line or switch a lot around to multiple stories. Thanks for all the support!