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Parents should protect us from abusers and not be the abusers themselves 

Se nota que tanto me querías en tu vida cuando en menos de 5 segundos me tenías bloqueada de Facebook whatsapp e Instagram 

Soy la mala porque te atrape mintiéndome cierto?

Ni siquiera mi mamá pudo amarme lo suficiente para dejar a mi papá que tanto daño me hacía porque espere que un extraño lo hiciera?

Pensé tantas veces que iba a matarme

I need a person that can be my safe place and treats me like a human without me having to ask 

Am just here in my bedroom all the time now not being able to find a job or keep trying cause health issues 

The people that bullied me are having the best life they could have 
          They have friends that they can just go to if they wish to talk 
          They are pretty and good looking 
          They are healthy 
          Beautifull bodies
          Intelligent 
          They know how to talk to other people 
          Never experienced bullying 
          Great young adults 
          Jobs 
          They had everything that is important to them
          
          I suffered bullying to every school I transfer to and it makes me ask myself what they see in me that I can’t see? What gave them the motivation to do all that? Why they could be real friends with new people but when I tried those same people were just the friend that talk to me when they needed something 
          
          
          What am I doing wrong? I couldn’t even find a prom dress I felt in love with 
          I just put a dress that was cheap and in my size It WAS CAMO DRESS THEY EVEN THREW FUCKING SHADE AT ME IN A FUCKING WEBSITE 

Pensé tantas veces que me golpeara fuerte para así tener pruebas y meterlo a la cárcel 

Espero me de esa pela que prometeré darme para cuando termine en el hospital hacer que termine en la cárcel