Chapter nine is really interesting to write. It's painful and emotional. There's something about writing Nico di Angelo that I absolutely love. I went through my own traumas, so I really relate to him on a deep level. I went through absolute hell, I lost my brothers, I was taught to not accept my identity and sexuality at all costs, and growing past that was hard. And even ten years later, I am still trying to move past it. I may never, but that is okay. It's okay to hurt, it's okay to feel anger at the life you were given. It's okay to not forgive, remember that