Kiyomi

Everything here reminds me of something that's been lost. The community here when we were all stuck inside during quarantine is gone, and it seems like I'm still stuck in this place, and the fear of everything leaving and ending up with a fate unknown to me scares me so much. 
          
          I really hope for the best, but most times my mind wanders to the worst. I really want to imagine that the people here, the authors, the readers, everyone, really, is living and doing well, but I know that's not the case for everyone, and it breaks my heart to realize it.
          
          There's really nothing I can do, but to move on with my life. I have a real, physical life, with people I know and interact with, and none of that can be thrown away. 
          
          I wish it was easier to admit this, but life moves on, whether you want it to or not. Sometimes I wish I could go back to quarantine, if only for the community and stories here, but time is irreversible, and it won't stop moving just because I'm feeling sad. 
          
          Again and again, I come back, hoping that the people here will return to the same state that I initially found it in, in 2020, but the better part of me knows that won't happen, because life is different, and I am different. 
          
          This is just a reminder, to anybody, really, that time moves on, and you will have to, as well, even if that itself takes time.
          
          Maybe this will become my own sort of diary, or blog, if I'm willing to call it that, but I think it serves as a reminder to move on, even if it's just past me talking to the future.

Honestly...going through this account again makes me feel like I'm having a panic attack. Looking through my library or even my notifications make me feel so...temporary. I know that we are temporary, and nothing's permanent, but it's such a stark contrast to what I remember everytime I check it. The amount of authors updating here decreases exponentially everytime I check it, and all of the books that I used to read and wait eagerly for updates on are now discontinued or unfinished. Many of the authors I used to read have abandoned their accounts and moved on, and I'm dreading the day that I receive another farewell announcement from one of my current authors. I can't help but wonder where these people go to, whether they've made it somewhere at all. Some part of my brain can't help but wonder whether they've died, or if they forgot about this place, or if they're somewhat like me, and simply don't want to come back to this place and awake past memories. Even though they've all stopped publishing though...somehow time keeps moving on, and it's never going to stop, not for anyone. Even if they've died, or even if they've just moved on, time is never going to stop. That doesn't change the hard feelings though, because the truth is, these books have gotten me through some hard times, and looking back on them makes my heart hurt. The people who wrote them are no longer with us, whether that's in general or just on this site, and I can't stop a part of me that wishes that we could all live happily ever after, writing and daydreaming like we were once able to. It's useless, because I can't change that. There's nothing I can do but remember what it was like before, but one day, I won't even be able to do that. I'm not sure what I'm doing this for, maybe it's just a remind for myself that nothing is permanent, and everything is constantly changing, but maybe it's also some type of closure; that life keeps moving on, and you just have to, too.

Don’t you think it would be funny if there was a KNY fanfic where the MC is like the Cheshire Cat from Alice in Wonderland? Especially that interaction with Alice and the confusing directions (“he went… that way!” “…who did?” “the white rabbit.” “he did?!” “he did what?” *Alice points that way* “went that way!” “who?” “the white rabbit!” “what rabbit?”)

hey love !! tysm for the follow !! i hope you have a great day <3

Hi, sorry for plugging my story here but I hope you can check it out. Thank you 
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/291397570?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=ShineYumine&wp_originator=NdZ3JuJI4B3URqocsmL3rUw4iUE%2But4QP04QICfvZSOunQ6%2FnsPOu2%2FQACkVVPzDdZ2B0sxtAnlv7vWoVtTacmwjvSVKF%2BCQzQ3iOW28blWPw726yoW%2FzkbzFAG1n6tU

Heyy! Tysm for the follow, I hope you're having a great day ahead and stay safe out there! <33

  ─── AXTER'S WEEKLY MESSAGE ! #5 ───
          
          
          
                    
                     )  )  (  (
                 __  __  __  __ 
                (___________)
                 /                  \         " halloween is here ! >:)
                /                     \       are you excited ?  cause i
               |                        |      am !!  hehe, make sure to
          ____\                   /____ be careful !  you could get
          ()____'.__     __.'____()   a stomach ache if you eat
                                               to much candy . (´ｰ∀ｰ`) "
          
          
          
          
          　　　　 ∧＿∧
          　／＼（　・∀・）／ヽ
          （ ●　と　　　つ　● ）   B O N U S ! ♡
          　＼/⊂、　 　ノ　＼ノ
          　　　　　し’                  " what're you dressing up
                                                    as for halloween ?? " :D

   ─── AXTER'S WEEKLY MESSAGE ! #4 ───
          
          
          
          ∧＿∧＿∧          " i might not know you, but im   
          (*･ω･)ω<*)           proud of you. im proud of all
          /⌒ づ⊂⌒ヽ          the little steps you take each
                                         day. the little steps matter, dont
                                         forget that ! "  ♡
          
          
          
          
                                                          
                  ☆  B  O  N  U  S  ☆    ∧＿∧ =- 
               what's your favorite     (´･ω･`)`つ=- 
               show and why ?               `つ \ =- 
                                                       \,⌒＼\,,,_=-       

         ── AXTER'S WEEKLY MESSAGE ! #3 ──
          
          
          
           　＿＿ ∧ ∧ 
           ／＼　 (*ﾟ∀ﾟ)＼ 
           ＼／|￣￣∪ ∪￣|＼       " you've don't your best 
              ＼|　　〓〓　 |             today. you did what you
          　　  ￣￣￣￣￣              could through the day    
                                                    i'm proud of you for that,                                         
                                                    you should be too. "
          
          
          
          
          
          ┌──────┐   
          │    BONUS     │   " what's the most fun /
          │QUESTION ! │        spontaneous thing you've
          └──────┘        done ? "
          ヽ(＾ω＾)ﾉ三三　     ○   
          　 (　 へ )三三　　┗||||┓三   
          　　く 三三 　　　 ┏┗　 三   
          ￣￣￣￣￣￣￣￣￣￣￣￣￣￣￣

         ─ ( AXTER'S WEEKLY MESSAGE ! #2 ) ─
          
          
          　　　　｜
          　　／￣￣￣＼
          　／　　∧　　＼
            │　  ／ 川＼　 │            " heyo !  has anyone 
          　＼／┏┻┓ ＼／                told you that you look 
           。 。*┃H ┃゛。                absolutely amazing
          ゛，。┃E ┃＃。゛             today (✪̼o✪̼) ??  like
          。゜＃┃L ┃゛。゛             seriously , niki minaj
          ，＊。┃L ┃゜。＃             is jealous !! anyways , 
          ＃゜。┃O ┃゜＊。             besides from your 
          　　　┃!! ┃                        usual amazing aura ,
          　　　┗┯┛                        how have you been ?
          　∩∩　│                            have you taken time
             (*´∀`) │                            for yourself , eaten a
          　/　⊃                                  meal or two , drank 
                                                any water ?  if you 
                                                haven't , then do it 
                                                now >:( !!  super proud 
                                                of your progress — 
                                                whether be with 
                                                school or social life !  
                                                i'm always proud of 
                                                you , 'kay ??  if you 
                                                ever need to talk or 
                                                rant , my pm's are 
                                                always available <3 !!
                                                ( also , sorry for the 
                                                long paragraph ^^; ) "
          
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          ┏‥┓　　　∧    ∧　
          ┃B├┓　（｡･ω･｡）
          ┗┬O├┳━〇━〇━┓
          　┗┬N┃U S ! ! ♡┃       " if you were given three
          　　┗‥.┻‥.━‥..┛             wishes , what would 
                                                      you wish for ?? "