DerekMinor

Awkward moments seem to have found their home with me. Maybe it’s because I’m a bit of a recluse, interactions haven’t gotten better with time. My observational skills have though. I’m not Jackson Lamb or anything but I have a knack for reading emotional cues. Knowing when I’m not wanted. It’s a beautiful thing to feel like the object of another’s desire. It’s a special thing to know when to take a hint. A lot of us figure there must have been some sort of mistake when we’re rejected. So we press on to clear the misunderstanding. We were just being nice. We press on. I’m sure they’ll understand. We press on, piling the pressure until we become something we are only ashamed of later. The benefit of hindsight is that you can be more objective with your emotions. Objectivity in spite of them is also a skill. And like any skill, proficiency is bred in practice. So embrace the awkward moments. Discomfort is the perfect place to learn. About yourself. About others. About holding on and about letting go.

kaariga

@DerekMinor glad to know :⁠^⁠)
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kaariga

@DerekMinor you alright, luv?
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DerekMinor

Awkward moments seem to have found their home with me. Maybe it’s because I’m a bit of a recluse, interactions haven’t gotten better with time. My observational skills have though. I’m not Jackson Lamb or anything but I have a knack for reading emotional cues. Knowing when I’m not wanted. It’s a beautiful thing to feel like the object of another’s desire. It’s a special thing to know when to take a hint. A lot of us figure there must have been some sort of mistake when we’re rejected. So we press on to clear the misunderstanding. We were just being nice. We press on. I’m sure they’ll understand. We press on, piling the pressure until we become something we are only ashamed of later. The benefit of hindsight is that you can be more objective with your emotions. Objectivity in spite of them is also a skill. And like any skill, proficiency is bred in practice. So embrace the awkward moments. Discomfort is the perfect place to learn. About yourself. About others. About holding on and about letting go.

kaariga

@DerekMinor glad to know :⁠^⁠)
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kaariga

@DerekMinor you alright, luv?
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DerekMinor

It was a dark and stormy night. My glow in the dark watch wasn't working and I could feel a sense of humour in the air. Almost like death was smiling at me. The sky roared with the promise of rain. And yet all the promise of the future was clouded by the stench of loneliness that pervaded my tiny apartment. 
          Loneliness is the beginning of death.
          At least, I think it is.
          And death to me has always been the path that we sojourn. Life being the opportunity to experience that path. To learn and unlearn. To separate the temporal from the everlasting. 
          Death is everlasting... much like the feeling of loneliness. 
          It bores a crater into the depths of your being, even in the presence of company. People are a distraction. Television is a distraction. Everything else is an attempt to quell the hunger in that place. 
          A place we prefer not to look at or look into. 
          Well, because it reminds us that we are everlasting, struggling with the absence of a reason why.

DerekMinor

Quote of the day,
          
          
          Most folks live and die without moving anything more than the dirt that it takes to bury them.
          
          
          A well endowed lady just passed by. But my eyes are focused on keeping it a mental struggle.
          
          
          Earlier today, I met an old man, a fellow connoisseur of a long life well-lived. That was until he started talking the way old men just prattle on like they don't see I have places to be, people to save. Life is hard for a dreamer. 
          
          
          He looked sad, like an old dog pouting while plagued by its owner's absence. He had an old notebook with him and he held on to it like he was clutching a detached part of himself. 
          
          This was of course, speculation on my part but I do have a nose for these things, an ear, an eye, I'm practically an esper.
          
          I was curious but I had no intention of sitting through an old man lecture at this point in my day. But I did stare, long enough for him to cease rocking to and fro restlessly. For a while, I forgot I was staring. 
          
          
          Turning gently, his voice cracked with a depth that could echo under water, 
          
          
          Do you know me?
          
          
          Of course I don't know you guy. But I didn't say that. I reflected on all those seminars I painstakingly endured. For the sake of my future self, I decided to do the sensible thing. The only thing one can do when faced with a mysterious adult trying to recognize you. Lie.
          
          
          The well endowed lady has passed by again. But I'm still committed. 
          
          
          Respectfully yours,
          
          
          The cable guy.
          
          
          

DerekMinor

@preciouspearl20 Ohh. Thanks for saying that
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DerekMinor

I have this random urge... maximum points if you get it
          
          It's 104 days to summer vacation and school comes along just to end it but the annual problem for our generation is finding a good way to spend it... Like maybe...

DerekMinor

@insekyo haha. Nostalgic is right. We might get old and wrinkly before Luffy finds the one piece XD
            But it also does feel good to have a few good shows not many people know or maybe remember. The joy becomes more pronounced when you find your crowd. 
            You think, whatever happened to megas XLR.. trying to rewatch old cartoons would be my thing if I could find them. 
            But I guess with so much to see it also slips into the back of my mind. 
            I started my first anime on probably it's 5th season and it was all subs. So when I found dubbed ones, I just couldn't get into it. They all sounded so unserious XD
            
            Have you listened to Saya Gray's music
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insekyo

it does, it does. not many persons i’ve mentioned it to know it. don’t think i can put in words the thrill of nostalgia i just felt because of it. would watch my brother play it and watched the movies with him. to this day there is a slit in my heart from when zack died protecting cloud. and little me had such a crush on angeal. i can’t believe that was like over 12ish years ago. even your bg of one piece reminds me of how i used to stay up watching it with him even though i understood nothing, especially since subs seemed awfully dumb to me at the time. now, i get it & can’t go back. it pains me to grow 
            
            i like artistes who stray from the conventional/mainstream style of music. you always find them producing gems. still feel it is a good one, i agree
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DerekMinor

@insekyo final fantasy for as big as it is feels sometimes so niche. I never played many of them but I loved their movies.
            
            Hmm. He has an unconventional way he goes about his music. I've heard another called still feel it. Shorter than I hoped but I liked it.
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