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Holy shit you sound like me, I know you have depression and it's not really my business, but I have depression too my whole life is falling down, my mom had to put me in a hospital for she was scared of me, I had to spend two months in that hell and all it did was make my depression worse, I started cutting as soon as I got home, I started slicing my stomach and my shoulders, for I knew they wouldn't check their, I tried getting a boyfriend,but they just look at me in disgust and walk away, my depression only grew worse, I would start locking myself in the bathroom, just so I relieve the stress, watching the blood go down my arms I would think of ways to kill myself... then I realized I was better than this, I didn't care about what people thought of me anymore, I started to find stuff I loved doing and would spend my days doing art, I soon gained friends, friends who are going through the same thing, we all stopped cutting after that, for their are better things in life , than Pierce your beautiful skin,... I have no clue if this helps at all... just know that you are beautiful.... and cutting is not the answer.....