Devils-Grin

I miss you. -Chris.

heavens-runaway

-Sits on your board with a slight sigh, picking the colourful flowers beneath me.- I guess this is the only place I can actually talk to you without leaving my bed; gosh I sound lazy. -chuckles softly and sets the flowers down in my lap; gently picking the roots off of them before placing them on your grave- Selena hasn't spoken since you left, though, she did have a giggle today when we were walking passed a brick path way. She saw a space full of water and what seemed like 'pine tress' only a seaweed looking way. She remembered the story you told her when you, as a child, used to say those things look like mini 'rainforests.'  It was adorable.  Its been hard without you, I can't even concentrate with work. We need your presence, your cheesy jokes that made us roll our eyes and crack up between the most serious issues. Bleh. Its ll been a mess lately. 
          I hope you're watching us up there from a safe spot, love.  Wait for us up there, yeah? -smiles softly and slowly gets up- Love you Joshy <3 -Dusts myself off with an exhale, walking out of the forests where your grave lies- 
          
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multicoloured-

.. For many days, I have been debating whether to come here or not to give my condolences. I never liked you much but.. you should not have gone. You left people a wreck here, Joshua. You left your sisters, you left Roselyn, you left Leah. You just.. left. The world would be a much more chaotic place if people left like you did. I know we had fights, and we had differences and we argued and did not get along, but you should not have left. There was a time, at the beginning, where we were friends. Or.. almost friends. Remember that? Yeah. That happened.
          I do not even know where I am going with this, to be honest. You should not have gone. You were too young and it just was not.. it was not right. You should not have left like that.
          Roselyn was a mess. No, sorry, she /is/ a mess without you. She cannot stop thinking or talking about you. Even Leah needed comfort over you. And Christina. I had to help her, too. Three most important girls in your life, Joshua.. How could you possibly leave them? How could you? I know things were a mess when you decided to get drunk and then your heart gave out.. but honey, it could have worked out. Roselyn did love you. She does love you. She just.. It was my fault that she did not say yes to you.
          And I.. I want to apologize for that. I really want to apologize for it. I was the reason everything happened, and I am the reason you are now gone.
          I do not know what to say. I am so sorry about that, but I cannot change it. I will have to live with the burden, and somehow, I guess I will manage. Always do.
          Fly high, love. Fly high and spread your wings.
          And.. look over Roselyn for me. Or if not for me, look over her for yourself, okay? She really loves you and she really misses you.
          Be the angel she wants and needs.
          
          
          -Ray

amorfati-

You just... I can't... I know we didn't talk as much when I came out as me, but... damn. You take care of yourself up there. Keep smilin' up there, cause I always told you you had an ugly frown.
          
          I'll see you soon, Josh. Rest In Peace.