DevinBear224

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I got out of a situation where I was being severely manipulated for my money. My credit score is fucked and I'm in a TON of debt. I'm doordashing while finding jobs. The overdue fees and late fees are going to be the end of me. Not to mention being late on car payments and trying to keep up with that and car insurance. I know I haven't been on here in ages, but I need all the help I can get. I'm not ashamed to say it anymore. Any little bit helps. https://gofund.me/a6bbb978

NekoFangs8

@DevinBear224 aww sorry to hear that sending positive energy your way 
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DevinBear224

this message may be offensive
I got out of a situation where I was being severely manipulated for my money. My credit score is fucked and I'm in a TON of debt. I'm doordashing while finding jobs. The overdue fees and late fees are going to be the end of me. Not to mention being late on car payments and trying to keep up with that and car insurance. I know I haven't been on here in ages, but I need all the help I can get. I'm not ashamed to say it anymore. Any little bit helps. https://gofund.me/a6bbb978

NekoFangs8

@DevinBear224 aww sorry to hear that sending positive energy your way 
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DevinBear224

I’m sorry it’s come to this. I just... can’t get into fandoms or writing fanfictions anymore. So... I’m abandoning my work. I’m half tempted to delete the entire thing and forget it existed. But... there are too many of you who enjoy my work. I was going to pass my Wattpad onto either one of two people. So, they can either finish my work or add more stories but... seeing how you’re seeing this... They both declined. I’m not upset at them and neither should either of you. 
          
           I’m so, so, very sorry. I just can’t. I’ve tried. I’ve failed. I have a novel I’ve been working on for at least four years now. Fanfiction distracted me from that and acted as practice so I can better my writing for my novel. I think it’s time I got back to my novel and end my rein of fanfiction writing. I want to eventually get it published and everything. I’ve had so many ideas for my novel that I even have backgrounds, appearance details, power details, and story arc ideas written.  
          
          I’m sorry you have to find out this way. But it’s better than just leaving you all in the dark. I’ve been left in the dark before, several times, and it’s not fun. Anyways, this is it for me. I hope you all understand and forgive me for doing this.  
          
          Yours truly, DevinBear224.

DevinBear224

My work will still be up. I'm not deleting it. I have too many people enjoy my work. And I'll think about having followers pick it up. 
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TilDeathDoUsPart0728

@DevinBear224 just a question, will ur work still be up or taken down?
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Lynnsoso199

That’s fine. We love you and the work you’ve given us and hey maybe one of your readers could pick up the work and us a special tag it give credit to the original source. Anyway I understand the stress of writing I still haven’t finished the book I started years ago. I just hope you can enjoy Wattpad in general even though next time we see you it’s as a reader
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DevinBear224

Hi! I'm incredibly sorry for the lack of writing. But I'm officially leaving the nalu fandom and will no longer write for it. I'm sorry but I've moved on, and moved onto Killugon. However... I will be taking an extended Hiatus. I don't know for how long. But last Monday, it took everything in me to not swallow a handful of pills. I'm trying to turn my life around. I'm trying to change my diet, walk one of my dogs once a week, hopefully. I'm in a really bad place. I'm determined to change that, hopefully. 
          
          I am heavily, heavily suicidal. I have been for almost seven years now. How I am still here still amazes me. I have severe depression and wavering anxiety. But a friend of mine has convinced me to try therapy. I am currently writing all of my dark thoughts into a journal that I will show to those I trust with my life and if I find the right therapist. My family does not know and I will keep it that way. 
          
          I don't know when I'll be back. I'm extremely sorry. I'm sure some of you have been with me from the beginning. Thank you for sticking with me and being patient with me. I can't thank you enough. I'm not follower driven or fame driven but still, seeing this many people read my garbage writing is amazing. I met some friends on here. They certainly worry me but everything does. 
          
          Thank you to those who actually read this rant. Continue reading, my friends.

DemonButterflyLIght

@DevinBear224 You are wonderful at writing! I feel you too. I have extreme depression and having time alone helps me get away from it. Your writing helped me. it was all soo cute. :) Thanks for all you do! Hope you are doing well! :3
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rubycheerio

@DevinBear224 hey feel better I also have severe anxiety so it gets better I recommend making a schedule for yourself to have a planned day which will also take alot of stress of get well soon ❤❤❤❤
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yuichanwazhere

➤I mean it 
          
          Read it all
          
          If you were killed,I wouldn't be at your funeral
          
          I'd be in jail for killing the person who killed you
          
          We are true friends
          
          We ride together,we die together
          
          Send this to everybody you care about including me
          
          See how many times you get this 
          
          If you get this back I understand
          
          But this is a game for you 
          
          Once you read this letter, You must send this to 15 people you love
          
          If you get atleast 3, you are loved
          
          Nobody knows how important something,someone, is until you lose it
          
          Midnight(right at 12:00 am) the person you love will realize they love you
          
          Then at 1:00 am to 2:00 am,be ready for the shock of your life
          
          If you break this chain,you will have bad luck
          
          A friend told me to do this so I pasted it on
          
          Who knows maybe tomorrow,two boys / girls will ask 'Can I have your number'
          
          Send this to 15 nice people or bad luck will strike for a year 
          
          This is not fake 
          me: sorry not takin any chances

smaliorsha

Heyho! I read through some of your stories and took a notice that some of them been inspired by my art. I feel quite happy about that! I've shared one of them on my tumblr if have an account let me know so I could throw a tag on it. Keep it up!

DevinBear224

Thanks! And no I haven't. Too busy with work. I'm outta ideas and inspiration. I have almost 50 uncompleted works on my profile actually. 
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smaliorsha

@DevinBear224 I hope you will find time and inspiration to do it again, unless you've been already doing so elsewhere
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DevinBear224

@smaliorsha I'm sure you've noticed how my name on here is different than on Tumblr, seeing how we've just talked on Tumblr earlier, I don't post my work on Tumblr so if you want to share it on Tumblr I have no problem doing that. Also I haven't written anything on here for so long
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