Hi, how are you?
I just wanted to reach out and say that you’re so strong, beautiful and amazing, even if it doesn’t always feel like it.
I’ve struggled with very minor ED before, I weighed myself 2-5 times a day and wrote down my weight every morning, afternoon and evening, I would try not to eat but then give in and just eat some junk food and call it a day. I started spiraling, then school started again and I started two different sports, soccer and cross country, it helped a lot because I knew that if I was gonna burn calories and get stronger, I would need to fuel my body instead of not eating so I didn’t get dizzy. Then someone on my soccer team fasted for a few weeks and then I was really worried about them, then I started worrying about my weight again, it’s mainly things like, I feel like I have weird proportions-my thighs and calves are fat, my stomach sticks out, im out of shape, and I started comparing myself to some people that I know that are extreme athletes and really skinny, workout a ton, and eat smaller, healthier meals. It’s still affecting me but not nearly as bad as it was. I still catch myself checking my stomach every day, trying not to eat much lunch, and exercising. It’s not fun, and I’m sorry for going on and on about it but I just wanted to get it out, and try to find someone to talk to about this. You’re not alone and if you ever want to talk, reach out to me, I’d always welcome you to talk to me if you would like.
