Superwoman

So, another rant, in case anyone bothers to read these. Lately I have been kind of depressed due to the end of the school year coming and not being able to take theatre next year, and I guess it's affecting my eating and exercise habits some. I've been eating less and running has come down to a minimum. My friend noticed and brought it up to me, especially since she saw a dieting app on my phone I used a while back and never bothered deleting. I told her I was fine, but am I really? There is so much going on around me I can't keep up, and I just want it to stop. For everything to just stop and get better. For me to not be awkward and behind, and to barely talk because no one is going to bother to listen. I want my confident self back, the one not concerned about my weight, the varsity runner, the girl who will do anything and not care what the world thinks. I hate this pressure, and depression, and I just want it all to go away! It's become so much harder to be optimistic, when I make worse and worse grades and I can't seem to do anything right! Why does this all have to happen! Why can't it just stop! Why does everything have to come crashing down at once! I'm not ready, I never was. Just, please, let me know it's going to be alright. Bring some confidence back into my life. Help me forget these societal pressures and take back who I used to be. Just let me be me, please.

So, I have started writing my first book! It's called Rebel, and I would really love it if you guys took a look at it! If you do, I would also like it if you could give me some feedback about what is good and what could be better. Thanks!
          - DimensionLeaper (If you don't recognize me, I changed my username. I used to be Padawano)

Hey guys! So, I'm in the middle of a crazy emotional crisis, and was wondering if I could get some advice. My family is a military family, and my dad is being offered a position in Alabama. If he took it, we would be moving at the end of my sophomore year in high school, or next year. The thing that scares me is that ever since moving where I live now, and joining my high school cross country team, I have made amazing friends and have only just found out what a true friend is. I'm scared of leaving and losing the amazing relationships I have with my friends. They are always there for me no matter what, and I have never had friends like that before. I guess what I'm trying to get to is that I'm scared that I won't be accepted if we move, and that I'll lose touch with my friends back home. My dad knows that I'm having a hard time with this, and wants to wait for me before making a decision. I want to do what's best for my family, but I just don't want to feel alone and rejected again. What should I do? Thanks anyway if you took the time to read this, it means a lot to me.

Oh my gosh. I just went to read a book in my library, and I was just scrolling down the list, then BAM! All of my books are gone! Not a single trace! I go to the archive, same thing! What on earth is going on?!?!?! There are so many books in there that I don't want to lose, and now they're gone?!?!?!

So, I'm just kinda needing a little help here. In basketball practice this morning, I was a little crazy. Ok, I'll admit it, I was really crazy. But I like having fun, you know? I do this every day! Anyway, a few girls weren't there, so we had my brother and my teammate's brother (who were on the boys basketball team) play for them while we were scrimmaging and practicing plays. Being the crazy person I am, I was playing around (while being focused on practicing, I am not about to throw away my game!) and having fun. Well, my mom being the coach, I went home with her, and we talked about my craziness at practice. She said it was because of the boys. I was like WHAT!?!?!?!? I mean, seriously, I am not a person to go crazy over a BOY. I have a crazy personality! So, yeah, I don't care if boys are in the room, I will not, I repeat, WILL NOT go crazy because of them! Yes, you might say I am in denial, but I am just stating the truth. Honestly, i haven't had a crush since sixth grade! Anyway, thanks for reading my rant, I really needed to get this off my chest without my family teasing me. Bye!