I hope no one is reading this, and if you are, I recommend you stop now. I just feel like ranting a bit. It's in the middle of the night, and I started thinking, then I cried. In fact I'm still crying right now. So I moved schools this year, meaning the school year we are currently on. And I've met some friends, great friends, but I always feel like the second, third, maybe even fourth or last choice. But that isn't all the problem. This has been going on for a while. I used to have friends, or at least one, where I was the first choice. This was in elementary school, before we started to go to different classes from each other. We still hung out at recess, but the connection was weakening, then I moved, I had to start all over. Almost all my life, I've been more of a spectator, or a background character, I've always just sat, read, drawed, or looked at the people around me. Of course, I still talked to people, became good friends with them. But I've always felt like a background character, like Nico, or Reyna, or Chiron from pjo. If you're not in that fandom, like sub in sky's videos. Still not a fan? Sven from frozen. If you still don't know this. Think of a show, movie, book, or celebrity of some sort, then think about a character you don't see much, but still like or respect. That's me, in the background. So, I'm starting to feel depressed. I guess ever since the 4th to 5th grade I've started to develop it, I just never quite noticed it. I've always been an optimist, and I feel like I always will be, but I also feel like I'll have moments when I'm alone, mostly at night, and feel sad, crushed, and neglected. If you read this, I'm so sorry for wasting your time. And thank you for listening.
