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Hi it’s jet Rhoads I have a new channel 

Hey,a little shoutout to @mehbanana and her ff (fan 
          fiction)  https://www.wattpad.com/790046818-yoonmin-ff

Please come tomorrow!!
          
          Pwease

Hello

Back from the dead,exams and depression everyone!!!
          
          (Good mood)

News!
          
          As most of you don't know,my finals are coming (aka UPSR) and even though there are two months away,i'll be focusing in education most of my time.I will be back and might continue one of my stories but for now you just have to wait.I hope you all understand,have a nice day and wish me luck in the UPSR!

Happy Eid day is going to end so i have to go back to school,yay reality-

I know i don't have that many followers but those who are,i have been taking some therapy classes but none of my classmates know.Why? I have reached all the 5 stages of grief of my mother,grandfather and my best friend.Why am i telling this now? Because this is the only place i can express myself.My mom died of breast cancer when i was 8,My grandfather died of a heart attack when i was 5 and my best friend used,betrayed and stalk for someone who is paying for her.Now,i can't trust anyone and i couldn't make any friends,only oneline ones.It gets worse that i started to cut myself because my best friend and her new one cut themselves too because of me.They stopped but i kept thinking that it was my fault even though it wasn't.I want to stop cutting but i can't.I'm all alone.Someone stalking,grieving over lost people,anti-social,depression and even PTSD.I just want stop it all and live a normal life.I would sometimes go to the balcony of the roof thinking if i should jump or not because i never made any difference in my class.My grades are getting and it kills me.My sister always said why can't i think straight-forward and i'm still trying too because i'm afraid if i do it wrong.I sometimes need more details on simple one like when someone said sit down i have to ask how like straight or legs crossed.I always had a feeling that people are watching me like my best friend.I'm not with her anymore but she wouldn't even let me smile at her.She says her father will hunt me down if i did something bad to her because her father is an agent and agents kill people who are bad.
          
          This may not sound real but its truth,i hope you understand i'm going through right now at this moment your reading this.

Yup https://www.wattpad.com/story/187307732

Please pay attention this...
          
          I haven't been feeling well because of deppression,stress,anxiety and negative thoughts so k might need to rest my mind and atleast  try to think positve if i can
          
          I hope you understand this all...