Fatty

Apparently my hair looks like shit today y’all according to my grandma “you’re hair looks like shit but go out like that if you want I don’t care” if you didn’t care you wouldn’t have said anything 

Today has just been the worst day I swear I wake up on my period which sucks and then my laptop won’t work even more sucky then my grandma gets mad over nothing again and starts breaking plates and telling my dad that he was a mistake that should’ve never been born and she wishes he had died the day he was born and of course I start crying because wtf you can’t say shit like that and then she falls and gets cut and screams at anyone who tries to help her up and refuses to let me at least put a band-aid on her arm and screams at me for cleaning the glass off the floor and I can barely breathe right now and I’m trying to stop myself from crying again and I just don’t know what to do anymore we shouldn’t have to live in fear of angering her and constantly trying to cater to her every whim all the time I should’ve left with my younger brother when I had the chance but I didn’t want to leave my family alone with her when I thought I could help them I thought I could help her to not be so stressed out but I can’t do it I just can’t I don’t know what else to do 

I wanna punch this b!tch 
          
          my aunt just went on a rant about how women shouldn’t be allowed to be president because they’re too emotional and that if I’m gonna try to talk about women’s rights I should act like a woman and shave and how she won’t take us(me and my dad) to vote cause she knows we’ll vote democrat and that we shouldn’t even be considered democrats cause we don’t work 40 hours a week and that democrats are supposed be for the working class but they’re really not and just every time I tried to argue she’d get all smug and start going off like she knows better than us and we’re stupid and where’s your proof where’s your facts if Trump didn’t do it in office while he was president it doesn’t matter I’m not talking about it and I should be allowed to say *insert the n-word she didn’t say n-word she said the actual word* because they can call us crackers and I’m gonna keep saying it until they stop calling us crackers 
          
          I wanted to bash my skull against a wall just listening to her

You ever feel like there’s a bowling ball in your stomach like just randomly you’re fine aside from the bowling ball inside you I get this randomly for no reason like is this just a me problem? Tell me I’m not alone 

You ever get a test and like half of what’s on it was never even talked about at all not even a brief mention that was my history test today I think ima fail this class y’all pray for me 

A category 4 hurricane is coming to my area soon so waiting on that I saw hurricane Michael before it came to my area a few years ago so hopefully it’s not gonna be that bad if I don’t post for a while y’all know why which bad timing because I’m in the middle of writing requests and doing my homework but like if I never post again y’all know the hurricane took me out and I probably drowned lol 

 Update so no soda or star-crunch for me today my soda that I had in my bag is gone just disappeared idk who took it and my star-crunch got ruined…? Soooo the universe hates me theory confirmed?

Y’all I think the universe is trying to tell me I’m gettin fat cause today I had 2 star-crunches(little I think rice cake covered in chocolate) and a soda to last me the whole day and then my aunt forced me to give one of my star-crunches to my cousin cause “she doesn’t have a snack for school today there’s a vending machine at your college you can get another snack” I don’t have any money and my paycheck won’t come in till next week and then when I get to work the drink I put in my bag is gone so all I’m gonna have today is 1 star-crunch I been getting a bit chubby lately so good for me I guess 

Y’all ever just be typing words and a word doesn’t look right like you know that’s how the word is spelled but it doesn’t look right even though you’ve used it five times already in 2 paragraphs and only now does it look weird? 
          
          Like is that just me lol

Y’all ever just find a random bruise on you and have no clue how it got there? I was in the shower and found a bright yellow bruise on my thigh and idk how it got there but if it’s yellow then it’s been there for a few days how have I only just noticed it lol