Hey... I don't want to be a bother but I heard from a mutual friend that you want to uh... not live anymore and that has gotten me concerned.
Like I said I don't want to be a burden here but I'm just passing by to say that whatever is going through is going to die down when you least expect it, ending it all at such a young age is not the best outcome.
Uh I don't really have much to say other than that your life is the most valuable thing you have and losing it is not going to be pretty both for yourself and your mutuals.
Uh, that's all I believe... Try to look out to trusted ones and open up to them, seek help and get into therapy if possible, lose another soul to self-deletion is not what humanity needs right now, and that's all I guess, uh... Don't forget to eat, sleep, and drink water, and take care :)