Selectively mute.
I’ve been talking about it non stop,
I have seen the look in your eyes,
Even though you think I’m on top,
I’m a burden in my eyes.
I can’t speak without messing up,
So why not just stop,
I wanna live in my own bubble,
I can’t speak without causing trouble.
I say something,
But it’s never heard,
‘You can’t go through life without saying one word’.
I don’t need help,
This is just my safe space,
I feel like I’m drowning,
I don’t need help,
I just need some space.
I don’t want to talk for a few years,
Sometime I will break out of my shell,
For for now I want you to know,
For me talking is like hell.
‘Speak one word!’
You shout in despair,
No word comes out,
It is only air.
I don’t want you to worry,
Please don’t you frown,
I just want to stop talking for a bit,
At least I’ll have a story for when you’re down.
I’ll still be the same funny me,
I’ll still love you,
I’ll still make sure you’re happy,
I just need to focus on me.