@Dnf_qb
Woah its been a while since I've updated I don't even remember what the story I was writing is about!! But ima prob start a new story I've been so bored lately my mental health is still weak though ^^ so don't expect frequent updates love y'all!! Keep going, love yourself, and don't be like me!!!
Another tiny lil rant
God, I find myself so annoying. When ever anyone takes like an hour or longer, I text them again, wanting some sort of conversation to start. After a while I start thinking, 'what if they find me annoying' 'am I bugging them to much?' 'God I'm way to fucking needy.' I let myself down, thinking people hate me now. this is what happens as someone who craves attention they will never fuckin get.
Just a lil rant ❤
I have stopped venting to people, I've been keeping to myself, comforting myself with vent music. I just feel bad for bothering everyone 24/7 because I'm crying again. My mental health age has been growing worse over time, (I may start to cry while writing this.) I've been starving myself, (I'm sorry.) my sleep schedule is fucked up entirely, I don't know what to do anymore. As my eyes start tearing I just hold in all the words that want to pore out of my mouth, I mostly just want to feel loved, cared for. I never got the attention I needed when I was little, I was isolated in my bedroom, my only company was my plushies, toys, and my own arms. I never had a shoulder to cry on, I was just called a cry baby. The only shoulder I ever really cry on is Samuels, but I don't even do that as often anymore. I just sob, hugging myself as mascara mixes with my tears. I really don't know what to do anymore.
Goddamn, it's almost been a year since I lost logged on. This profile is a lot different than I remember.
Hello! : ]
