Doe-Sparkles

Every time I pull my hair, well, it's only out of fear
          That you'll find me ugly and one day you'll disappear because
          What's the point of crying? It was never even love
          Did you ever want me? Was I ever good enough?
          The-the boy's a liar, the boy's a liar
          He doesn't see ya, you're not looking at me, boy
          The boy's a liar, the boy's a liar
          He doesn't see ya, you're not looking at me, boy
          Good eno-o-ough, good eno-o-ough
          Good eno-o-ough, good eno-o-ough
          Good eno-o-ough, good eno-o-ough
          Good eno-o-ough, good eno-o-ough

I feel alienated from other black people because I apparently listen to "white people music" and because I'm queer I've never meet a black person that is from the LGBTQ+  community or supports it and is still seen as a "black person"
          
           I mean i know it a fucking skin colour but I wanna be liked by other people of my cultural background. 
          
          I don't want my mom to hate me if I ever come out.
          
          Does it just mean I won't be accepted if i to go to a Nigerian party just because I like women I wish I was straight
          
          (those things are fun and cool as fuck if you stay away from the creepy old men and the food is bomb)  
          
          And I know there other black queer people but they are mostly African American and don't have a specific ethnic group and I wanna be able to have a Nigerian wedding and learn my mother's tongue and cook Nigerian food all while being queer but the world doesn't fucking work like that I guess

It's the midnight sun-kissed skin under the red sky
          Laying on your chest like this, ah
          Hold me like the pebbles in your hand
          Initials in the sand, yeah
          Summer isn't over yet
          Skinny-dipping with your heart out
          It's my favorite part now
          We ain't gotta tell no one, shhh
          A never-ending midnight sun

I'm sorry @IeatDrywall37 for flaming you about posting random quotes and song lyrics this is actually my coping mechanism

Too trusting and loving, depending, and kind
          Behind every kiss is a jaw that could bite
          And maybe that's why I feel safe with bad guys
          Because when they hurt me
          I won't be surprised
          
          Your love is a threat and I'm nauseous
          Scares me to death, how I want it
          Not common sense, but I'm haunted
          By people who've left, so you scare me to death
          Yeah, you scare me

https://youtu.be/l_OJldN8qeM?si=FxgkW3OpZs-ksI7S
          
          Doomed Yoai of the worst version 
          
          Click with caution and bring some tissues

I'm very upset about the negative impact Heated Rilvary made on the mlm community because if you pull back all the sex and the fetishizing done by the straight women that watched it you get a really good series on the struggles of being queer in predominantly straight sport such as hockey expecially with Hunter's arc
          
          Did you know that cinemas got filled by the fetishizers more than the people the movie is about and I makes me so mad every time I think about it
          
          On a different note why do wlw movies not get as popular as mlm and the same fetishizers that love gay couples see lesbian couples as wrong it just baffles me and then they call them selves allies

Oh God, what is that?
          
          It's a Liopleurodon, Charlie.
          
          A magical Liopleurodon.
          
          It's gonna guide our way to Candy Mountain.
          
          Alright, guys, you do know that there's no actual Candy Mountain, right?
          
          Shun the non-believer.
          
          Shhhunnn.
          
          Shhhhhuunnnnnnn-naa.

Pretty please, come on over and ruin my life
          Take my hand while we dance on the edge of a knife
          Na-na-na-na-na
          Na-na-na-na-na
          Oh
          Na-na-na-na-na
          Na-na-na-na-na (Pretty please)

I WISH I WASNT A MINOR AAAAAAHHH