PlotHoleMaster

I thought I was gonna write a lot this vacation especially when I had nothing else to do. Now here I am, I really did NOTHING -__-
          
          More than three months and I finished nothing, just parts and no fairytale endings T_T

ME: Almost done with my story ^__^
          
          ME: Looks at the blank page on my phone. . . . . 
          
          ME: Almost done with the story IN MY MIND -__-

I wan't to see and hold the drafts of my story so that I can fix them properly, but writing it on paper is very tedious and retyping them after is also tedious so I feel like I'm in pain right now T_T
          
          And if you're gonna tell me that I can just print it, well, I don't have a printer so that can't be an option. I'm normally fine with just going through it on my phone but I don't know why I'm itching to rearrange the parts of the story by page. . . .haaayyyyyyyyy. . .

I just hate it when someone follows my
          account and asks me to follow back.. . . .
          
          It's like, "THE HELL! Don't force me to do
          something that I don't want to do!"
          
          Are you just following random people
          just to get follow backs?!
          
          I don't need follows! You don't need to
          vote on my stories too.
          If you read my stories, then I thank you.
          If you don't, it's fine.
          Just don't ask me to follow you back -__-
          I can think for myself you know.
          
          
          
          Ughhhhhhhh! It makes my blood boil
          just remembering it. . .Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!

Me: Just finished writing a super long "short story". It took every ounce of patience and effort that I saved up to finish it.
          
          Now I need to check for grammars and spellings.
          
          
          Me: Looking at the word count, "7k plus".
          @&×£×¥$¥#?÷^_!:-:'^×%×£@(@( SH*T!!!
          
          
          ME:
          I MAY NOT BE UPLOADING THIS AFTERALL.
          T__T

ME: So FOCUSED in writing a short story that is light and simple.
          
          OTHERS: DAILY UPDATES a very detailed, complicated and engaging LONG story.
          
          ME: UNPUBLISHES my crappy stories and cries. . . 

ME: I'll sleep late so that my body would be forced to wake up later tomorrow.
          
          ME: Sh*t! I woke up the same time as always -__-

Me hating myself right now T_T
          I hate wasting plot lines especially
          when the needed scenes are nowhere
          to be found. . Huhuhu
          
          I hope I can still use the scenes in
          My 7th Boss. I really like those scenes T_T

When you're already doubting if what you are currently writing be even be in the final story you'll upload -__-
          
          It takes away the shred of motivation that I painstakingly conjured just to pick up the pace again.
          
          A year will soon be here and I haven't continued Say My Name and I haven't finished editing My 7th Boss and Wonrin and Eunrin in Yerin ships might still be in their draft form. . .
          
          I wish I was good in writing T_T

Being an entertainer, you need to capture people's hearts and make them follow you. Being a fan, when you're captured, you follow them, you invest time and money and emotions, you defend them, you fight for them.
          
          So if I say I'm a fan but I dont defend them for every single thing that I see or read, am I not a fan? If I don't fight a war that i think is just a waste of time, am I not a fan? If I don't take every little thing seriously, am I not a fan?
          
          Entertainer's lives revolve around entertaining people. That is their life because that is their career. My life doesn't revolve around them because that is not my career, so am I not a fan?