@aoewyn I hope i can meet you to Mama, that would be nice, it's been so long, i spent so much time being bitter about things, and forcing my self to just hold on to things i have so i don't totally loose myself. I know we have both made mistakes, i know we are not perfect people. But time has changed us... 12 - 13 years of time. I'm glad you are clean and happy. and I'm proud that you have changed from what you used to be