SydneyWrites02

Hya! I noticed you where on @lily1bons profile and that they have not posted anything recently and wanted to see if you knew if their doing ok. Also have a nice day 

I’m your 420th follower B)

is your old account ??  which one should I account for?  I already wrote it in the other account, but you never know.  What accounts did I write?

We have an issue guys. So, hey, this is a different account. When I changed my username, it locked me out of the account this is being posted on and I can no longer log into it. Please follow this account as it is now where im being forced to move to. Ill move all of my stories over. Also, read the announcment as it explains more. <3

So- I have fallen in love with the name Dottie (or Dot for short) can you guys call me that from now on?? (Other then then you guys still call me mom-)

It just occured to me that I should give you all an explanation.
          
          When I'm feeling, well, down, I guess? I tend to distract myself. It blocks out the names, it blocks out the voices of people ive met and what theyve said, it blocks out all the gendering and the "you just want attention"'s. 
          
          But it wasn't working today. I couldn't find motivation to draw. I've been writing, but you all know the part of the plot im at in Unwanted Vigilante so it hasn't been helping all that much. I cant go on a run or walk or just go outside in general because it was 12am when I posted that (1am now). I couldnt make something because, again, 12am and my mom is home.
          
          So, I was stuck.
          
          And when I get stuck, the voices get louder, the names get louder, the gendering and just everything gets louder and I need to ground myself.
          
          And I, like a lot people, can only ever think of one way to do that.
          
          You all know that I base Izuku in Unwanted Vigilante a lot off of myself. So, if you remember, when he was having a panic attack on the roof he was scratching the shit out of his arms.
          
          I do that. I also hit my leg repeatedly so hard that it bruises. And, though its less often and I try to never do it, I sometimes grab a needle out of my sewing kit and repeatedly poke it into my fingers until everything just goes away.
          
          Because the pain grounds me.
          
          Obviously, I know this is bad and I never want it to get more drastic if you know what im pointing at. So, instead, I chose today to look for validation, and it worked(took a little while, but it worked.).
          
          So, thank you. <3

Wel, uh...
          
          You guys got me to not grab a needle out of the sewing kit my mom made the mistake of getting me, so..
          
          Thank you. <3

On a scale from 1-10, how annoying am I?
          
          On a scale from 1-10, how helpful am I?
          
          Am I somebody you would come to for help?
          
          Would you let me come to you for help?
          
          On a scale from 1-10, how much do you actually care about me?
          
          Does me saying sorry so often annoy you?
          
          Does me replying to every comment annoy you?
          
          Do I talk to much?
          
          Do I talk to little?
          
          Am I a waste of your time?
          
          Do you care about me, or are you pretending like everyone else?
          
          Are you gonna misgender me on purpose?
          
          
          
          Be 100% honest with me.

I put the "pan" in panic. 

Ive been running off of three hours of sleep since 7am. It is now 4am.
          
          Kill me.