Okay so this is a really hard post for me to write. I'm sorry that I keep "returning" for all of you that still are into my books, if any of you. But, I've recently been seeing a therapist. No one knows but my parents and I. Ever since I was little I've been a liar. Yes I know everyone tells little white lies and such, but my lies have become a problem. It's not a documented psychiatric disorder, but my therapist says I show distinct signs of compulsive lying disorder. It's more on an addiction than a disorder. Basically, I've become very affluent at lying therefore I continue to lie and create these abstract realities for myself. The compulsive part is where I can't stop myself, lying has become first nature. If you haven't noticed already the story Maybe I'm Amazed is deleted. Not all of it was a lie, but it was enough for me to delete it. I want to stop lying. I need to stop. My therapist told me that the best way to deal with my "addiction/disorder" or whatever you want to call it, is to find some form of creative outlet. Painting and drawing didn't work. Dancing and singing didn't work either. I was trying to avoid writing because I felt like it was just another realm for me to continue lying. However, she thinks differently. She thinks that by writing I can create a character, like myself, and play out their life. So here I am, I'm ready to start a new novel, not about me, but about a girl, who I haven't named yet, who lies a lot like I do. If you read it thank you. Hopefully I haven't offended anyone, I truly never meant to. If you have any questions please message me. I hope you all understand.
