Hey!
I found you on Do Cup Chai (one of my favorite books ever- and I believe you share the same sentiment), and I just love how passionate of a reader you are and I'd absolutely love if you'd give my book- "Bleeding Like A Rose" a chance. It's a kind of tragic mafia romance with the tropes of she fell first x he fell harder, yearning, second chance, eldest son x youngest daughter, grief and so much more. The book on the whole captures love completely in it's purest form. I think you'd absolutely love it. So please do give it a try!
https://www.wattpad.com/story/411612525-bleeding-like-a-rose