@Dr_Inkspot no one will kill you, you have so much to live for. We all will wait for you patiently to write, (if you wish to.) and if you have any suicidal thoughts, know this: People love, care, and cherish you. Take some time and think back to all of your accomplishments and your best/favorite moments in your life, and if that doesn't work for you, you should go seek help from loved ones and/or a therapist. I wish you an amazing rest and I drink to your future, which will be a bright one, and I also drink to you for being you, because you rock.