Drasticdragapult109

Yall I somehow found myself developing more lore with 2 more new characters that takes place before lost souls help

I just thought of something for lore that might just have to make me re wright every bit of lore this is after spending 3 years constantly developing it 

Putting this here to because I just need to get this out 
          
          Was just watching a bunch of sadaxe videos and I'm generally trying not to cry because alot of them if exactly how I feel all the time and the more random ones that are supposed to make you happy even makes me more upset because I dont have aneyone to be able to send them to to show how I care. All shis shit really affected me badly and I seriously dont know how to explain how bad it actually is but at the same time want people to actually understand everything and not just look at one side and disappear. I've tried to explain over and over but no matter how much I do and they only see one side and completely ignore the shit I'm going through. Ontop of that I have no one to be able to talk about everything to aneymore and am resorted to bottling it all up and haveing random breakdowns from the smallest reminders of it all. Idk why it's so hard for people to realize how much damage has been done.
          
          Also I cant just be told to just go make new friends because my whole life of struggled doing so and only had up to 14 or 15 total friends my whole life which is lower then my age even. That and I dont do well just going up to some random stranger or even interacting with people I know in dms and such for some stupid reason that I dont even know 
          
          I've also been trying to vent through drawing but my motivation is at rock bottom rn and ontop of that art block to and only just got back into playing one of my favorite games only once every other day or so but think part of it is because I enjoyed playing it alot with the friends I lost. also sorry this got off topic so quickly because this is actually something seriously hurting me quite badly and just feel the need to have people realize it. It's not something I'll just get over easily either.  Also fucking sucks when I try to explain and the main person who caulsed this tries to act like I'm the shitty person when in reality I'm fucking struggling.

Think I finally got a radio apple au idea. 
          
          Turn them into dragons.(not like wmau I swear I mean literal dragons) this partly because I like dragons and it gives me a reason to draw dragons more often. That and I dont have to draw human hands. Now the question is if I make them random dragons or ones from wings of fire or maybe even dragon adventures (it's a game on roblox I like)

@NephaliMations honestly it's not really you that's the problem and its really doom that did most of the damage as I was generally upset with being left out all the time by her when things were getting worse as rp and such was one of my was of venting through lore and such and I'm seriously sorry for if you feel like the more targeted one when really it was doom causing the problem as she caused both fluffy and dry to leave me now so I'm completely on my own now because of people only takeing her side and not seeing my side when I was makeing progress in trying to be better

(1/2) Just know one thing. I would be DMing you this, but I cannot have discord and I haven’t been able to have it since May for reasons no one but me and those involved need to know about. And I’ve been away from my phone for a week, otherwise I probably would’ve seen that doc earlier.
          
          Let me set this straight. I’m being transparent here. I did not leave that group chat in February to help any of you, I left it to help myself. It is not my fault if you decide to do whatever you want to yourself/your stories/your reactions, that is YOUR choice. Sorry if my decision hurt you, that was absolutely not the intention. I had no say in what the other two did. You can be pissed all you want, but I never did that for you, it was for myself. I have left ONE comment on anything of yours since I left, and you deleted it. The other two have their own reasons for not interacting, so don’t you dare act like they’re at fault for any of the bullshit that happened (let’s be honest, I was the one that left first, and I didn’t do anything accept be silent for a week and leave suddenly). 

You people like it if I wrote a radioapple au (it would be a one sided one) if so maybe give some ideas that I could go off of. (I'm in a major hazbin hotel phase rn )

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1YCZ43B7WlPshwoxW2zGYJ277s7KK8FsLtNC9jOYew7I/edit?usp=drivesdk

Updated art book for those who dont know

Take rp notes because I spent 3 hours on this just to find out they would be needed once and Really don't want to put all that time to waste
          
          https://docs.google.com/document/d/1GLpJcUyaPR0AJ9F9mByAatEQmOQ2vAJqlLZ7fr2uP10/edit?usp=drivesdk
          
          Idk if the link will actually work or not if it dosent I'll copy and paste them in the comments