Ava

okay but SAO is amazing...and i noticed it on your profile so i had to say something :)

Hi! Can you please check out "Blood and Bone and Arrows" book on my profile? It's a Daryl Dixon x Reader and I think you'd like it ❤️
          
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Happy holidays to everyone!!! I hope you're holidays are great and you have fun with family and friends. I'll probably be coming back one the new semester starts for school as until them I've still got some stuff to deal with. I've got a Snapchat I use if anyone wants to add me avacado071504 but anyways have great holidays, merry Christmas, happy Hanukkah, happy new year, just everything. I hope you all are doing fantastic, love you all! 

I'm really sorry, it'll take a lot more time before I get back on here. On Wednesday my mother ended up drowning in the tub. We are pretty sure she had an epileptic episode and drown. I ended up being the one to try to do most of the helping with her and making sure she was okay, but it wasn't enough. I'm just in a difficult and putting the blame on myself. I just wish I had her back and I wish I could tell her I love her more than I did. She was my everything and she was just gone in a flash. I'm currently staying with one of my aunt's but will be moving Minnesota with a different aunt for a week or two and if it doesn't go well and I don't like it there then I will go to Oregon to live with my brother and his wife. I love you momma and I'm going to miss you so much, you were my light and you were there for me when I needed you most. I wish you didn't have to go and I wish I could take back all the "I hate yous" and everything mean I've said to you. Please love and appreciate your parents and what they do for you because they can be gone in a flash and you'll regret everything. 

So, I guess I am kinda back, I have taken down my books if anyone noticed and for those wondering why it's because I don't have the energy anymore to keep writing. To put it lightly I was in the hospital about 5 weeks ago now maybe 6 and it was because I got to such a point where I thought that my life wasn't worth it anymore. It was a stupid decision on my part because I have been home for 3-4 weeks now and I've been talking to people and I didn't seem to realize the people around me actually care. I feel horrible for trying what I did because I see how much my friends care and it makes me feel horrible that I tried it especially when I have stopped some of them from doing the same thing. I am in a much better mindstate then I was when I left and I have cleared some toxic people out of my life, I was able to make two new friends, fix my relationship with an old friend/ex (we are dating again and it is amazing cause he really cares), and I have started talking to one of my siblings who I hadn't talked to much. I just don't really have the energy to be writing at the moment because I still have 2 weeks of school work to do and I'm still getting more, I also want to focus more on what is going on around me and trying to keep up with everything around me instead of blocking everything out by being on here. My presence here will come back and I will go back to writing but it may take a bit, thank you all for the wonderful support over what I had written and I am sorry for my lack of being on here. Have a wonderful day or night wherever you are and you all are amazing people. Sorry for how long this announcement was, I just felt it was only right to explain my lack of presence.