Duskprincess89

IMPORTANT PLEASE READ!
          
          Hey friends, I know it's been a while since I've been on here, you can thank adult responsibilities for that one. But I really want to share something personal with you guys. You all are like a second family to me, and throughout my seven years on this platform, I've grown to love the community I've created, and made so many positive memories with you all on here.
          
          This year has really made me reflect on a lot of things. My mental and physical health, my future and what I want to do with my life after college, and most recently, come to terms with my sexuality and my comfortability. Some of you may already know about this, but I've never really vocalized it to anyone, for fear of judgement, especially when I was living in such a toxic cycle of feeling like I have to lock this part of myself away. But I don't want to hide anymore...
          
          I'm bisexual.
          
          This isn't a sudden realization; it's a part of me that's been quietly present for a long time. I've always liked both guys and girls ever since I was in middle school, but part of me always kept it hidden for fear of being shamed, especially when I was living in a very conservative town at the time.
          
          But here on Wattpad, this feels like an escape from reality for me, and I feel like I can truly be who I am on here because of you guys and your never-ending support. Some of you have been here for me since I was just starting out in summer 2020, and some of you have just started following me recently. I'm still the same Dusk who started writing on here seven years ago, but now you guys now a little more about me.
          
          I hope you guys will continue to support me in my journey of living my truth. <3
          
          With Love,
          Dusk Marie

WHY IS EVERYONE DYING THIS YEAR?!?!

UPDATE: 
          
          Hey guys, I know that the last couple of posts I've made have been pretty dark regarding the current situation with my ex. But I wanted to let you guys know that I am doing okay. I just needed to take some time off the internet for my mental health and focus on my job and the upcoming college semester. 
          
          It definitely hasn't been easy, since I've found so much comfort in the writing community here, as well as the music community on my Instagram. But I am starting to feel more like myself again, slowly but surely.  Thank you to those of you who have been supporting me for the past couple months, with losing my grandfather and now this. I don't know when I'm going to come back to writing, but I hope that whenever the time is right, I hope you guys will still have me.
          
          I love you guys so much, and I'll see you all soon.
          
          With love,
          Dusk Marie

TW: Stalking and Harassment
          
           I feel like a marked person now, I can't visit my favorite stores because I'm scared of running into him. I'm scared to leave the house because I'm worried he's gonna do something stupid to my property or my pets! But I'm also scared to stay home by myself, I'm scared every time I hear a car passing by, it's gonna be him. It's been almost three weeks since we broke up. Move the f*ck on! Leave me alone, leave my family alone! And stop trying to involve complete strangers when they didn't have any involvement in our relationship...

Tell me, have I not given you enough?
          If you ever loved me, let me go...

TW: Gaslighting, Verbal Abuse
          
          Just when I thought things were getting better, they get increasingly worse. Not only did he reach out to my 74-year-old grandmother who ripped him a new a-hole for calling me a wh*re to anyone who will listen, but he then proceeded to have his mom text her, and gaslight me saying I'm a horrible person and that his actions were entirely my fault. MY FAULT?! I think the fault lies with you, ma'am. You clearly failed as a parent, and I'll be damned if I ever let my future kids act this way after a breakup. This tantrum is the behavior of a toddler, not a 27-year-old man.

Bro, this is getting out of hand. Showing up to my job, trying to gaslight me with his fake apology saying that he needs to give himself closure, and then he proceeds to stalk me for fifteen minutes?! This is NOT healthy OR normal! Genuinely, I'm starting to fear for my safety...

I don't know about you, but I'm feeling 22! :)

Oh my god, now he's reaching out to my coworkers, who are in turn, reaching out to me about the breakup?! This is none of their business! Lord, give me strength. I need it when I go back to work on Saturday...

I felt guilty breaking up with him over text, but after the way he responded, trying to gaslight me, and tried reaching out to my family members, I don't feel guilty. That's not how you react when someone ends things. Take notes ladies and gents, if they truly love you, they'll let you go.