ENBYlesbean

Bro i just watched httyd once again and tuffnut is so bbygirl and idk what to do with that information

Satan_strip_club_

Yo . Wanna be friends ? I wanna to talk to somebody lol-

Satan_strip_club_

@ ENBYlesbean  thanks !
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Satan_strip_club_

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@ ENBYlesbean  fuck yeah
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ENBYlesbean

@Satan_strip_club_ friendship for the ages righ here, love ur user btw
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melodiiy-

I tried dippin', he begged me to stay

melodiiy-

She a baddie with her baddie friend (Damn, friend)
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melodiiy-

She a baddie, she know she a ten (Baddie, ten)
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melodiiy-

Big b0obs and the butt stay plump (Stay plump)
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Little_Mintno

are you gonna post more chapters on "Nurse Shoyo" any more?

Little_Mintno

It’s ok I’m not always on wattpad too don’t be worried
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ENBYlesbean

@Little_Mintno Not sure, ran out of ideas, sorry for the late response :(
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ENBYlesbean

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Question. why in the world should i have to talk when i dont want to. 
          
          (This about more than just this so if you're gonna read it, buckle up.(dw, nothing heavy though, no rubbing on any trauma i don't think))
          
           Like sometimes, it'll be so hard to talk that it almost hurts. its so tiring to make myself talk when i don't to. it stressful. its kind of scary. I'm not useless then, no, sometimes i just. don't want to (or feel like i can't) speak. Why is that an issue with other people? Why do i have to respond to every damn thing and why do i have to respond to those things verbally?  
          
          I mean like, Half the time its not even important, or its a yes or no question. Which should mean i can nod or shake my head but nooo. i have to speak. And then when i don't, my mother assumes im mad, and i'm not allowed to be mad at her apparently. and sometimes i am. and sometimes, i just don't want to fucking talk. i do not. understand. why. its. an. issue.
          
          Like really. people seem to try to make me talk, and its so damn annoying. like yeah, i get that being ignored is annoying too, but i offer alternatives --unless i just don't want to speak to *That particular person*-- so whats the problem? yes or no?: nod/shake my head or gesture. something else?: gesture clearly. Something that can't be comunicated like that?: write it down/type it.
          
          like what's the issue. why do need to speak
          
          
          
          And while we're on the topic, lets talk about touching (Non-sexually, by the way. just in general). Because, as a person, i touch, i don't like to be touch unless i say you can touch me. in any way. which makes sense, seems reasonable, but some people don't get that.
          
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kiy0kxs

@ENBYlesbean babes don't thank me for nothing.
            all I did was tell ya how life is and that u aren't alone in this.
            and I'm willing to tell ya every damn time till u be confident in urself and love urself the right way.
            cuz maybe life isn't beautiful and all rainbows like we thought but you only live once, and def we wouldn't want u to not have fun and live ur imperfect (cuz none is perfect yk) teenage life.
            babes treat urself right cuz if u don't know how to do that, ppl won't treat u right and that'll just cause u more issues.
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ENBYlesbean

@kairilovesnevi  this may. have made me cy just. a little bit.
            
            i just.
            
            uh.
            
            
             Thank you so much What the acutall hell. i have not actually felt this validated in. forever? so like. thank you, so much. and i will try my damndest to get over the hurdle and get the headphones.
            
            just.
            
            yeah, thank you, so much :)
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kiy0kxs

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@ENBYlesbean yea I feel u, ppl just don't understand boundaries these days, my best friend went through the same thing today, he didn't seem fine so I asked him if smth had happened, he only nodded his head meaning that he just don't wanna talk ab it now.
            I gave him space and time till he decided to tell me.
            
            
            it's just ab the ppl who surround u, ur mom maybe doesn't understand bc of the time and age difference and that's normal.
            
            **I also agree ab the touch part, ppl I like I always touch em (w consent ofc) and I don't like to be touched even by my own mother, lol ig it's ab trauma from the past that's why.
            but also no it's not wrong or "rude" to sit boundaries, whoever doesn't respect that just sit em on fire. u don't gotta apologize for smth that isn't a damn problem.
            
            ab the cancelling headphones, that just sucks. ik whatchu talking ab cuz I go through the same shit.
            ppl are too loud around me and it's so annoying, and whenever I'm home it's too quiet since I kinda live alone.
            being able to hear colors was never an advantage to me.
            it drives me insane, knowing when someone will knock on the door, when something moves in the kitchen and falls. and to the point I hallucinate voices and feel like there's ppl home w me, or ppl from my school outside at my street talking.
            
            and I'm telling u to treat urself better and take those damn cancelling headphones ur school provides.
            just know that u aren't wrong, ur feelings are valid and what u go through isn't an issue. many ppl are here to stick by ur side and prove to u that it's normal to not feel normal.
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