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Guess who's sisters gave them lice ✌️

I'm so fucking pissed rn. Long story short this girl at church today was a little rude to me. It was understandable. I volunteer at church, and I made a mistake. It's been a stressful day for all of us, and she didn't mean to be rude, so I ignored it. I mentioned it in passing to my mom, and she decided to fucking butt in her nose where it doesn't fucking belong to essentially lecture this girl. The girl did apologized, but the damage had been done. She had no fucking right to do that. So I went and talked to my mom. She got angry with me about it. Which just goes to show why I don't stand up for myself. How can I tell essentially strangers that they're me angry, sad, ect when I can't even tell my own mother that. And it's not even the first time she's done this. She wonders why I never tell her when I'm being bothered by something, but this is fucking why. Now I'm sitting in my truck crying.

A few minutes ago marked the death of any respect I had for the church pastor of the church I attend. As of rn, he's walking the church through the book of John. And today he's talking about the famous John 3:16 quote. And as he got further into his message, he brought up Jeffery Dahmer. Everyone knows about the whole "Did Jeffery Dahmer go to heaven?" Debate going on rn. And he talks about how Jeffery Dahmer was a terrible man, did terrible things, ect. But that he believes that Jeffery is in Heaven. And how God forgives anyone who puts their faith in him. Then proceeded to bring up Paul, the "Osama Bin-ladin" of his day, as he puts it. And how He's in Heaven, so why wouldn't Jeffery be there.
          
          So, Someone who never does anything wrong but they're an Atheist can burn in Hell for eternity, but a literal serial killer and cannibal can live life in paradise? I'll take Hell, thanks.

I hate my family so much.
          
          My sister recorded a video of me singing loudly in my pj's. I didn't care until she actually showed me singing. I told her to delete it and made her do it in front of me. Well, I don't know how she managed to get the video back, I even deleted it from ber trash folder. Bit not only did she get it back and showed it to my mom who knew how embarrassed I was, my mom proceeded to post in on her Facebook with the many people she has following her, many of which I see on a daily bases. I called her crying about it and she laughed at me. I know that crying is definitely too big of a reaction for this, but she knew how much I hated being recorded, and she knew how I would react and she still did it.

Watching Stranger things season2 for the first time. Off the bat bad vibes lol. Dustin just found this weird blob animal in his trash soooo

When you're having a pretty good day and then your mom comes home creaming at you for chores that your siblings didn't do and you have to sit there and taking it because defending yourself would just make it worse and your "off yourself" thoughts come back to your mind just as you thought you were over that...good times

I hate babysitting so much.
          
          So once a week for about three months now my parents have made me watch 8 kids by myself for 3 hours. My parents have small group (a small Christian group of church members that go over stories of the Bible and converse about the stories they read that night, sort of like a Christian book group.)
          
          There is 3 families in this group. Each family has 3 kids, including myself as one of the kids. When in small group they need peace and quiet time for their group so they can't have thile kids around. There are three toddlers, two 7-year olds, one 9-year old, and two 11-year olds. So as a way to save money they have me babysit them. My job is to keep them quiet, calm, and entertained for three hours in the upstairs toy room. You'd think being in the toy room would make this easy. Nope. After every night I come home practically in a panic attack from dealing with 8 kids, most of the time full of energy, who refuse to listen to me. I'm not allowed to punish them (take away toys, sit in the corner, ect). Which means all I can do is try to keep them quiet and hope they listen to me (they rarely do.)
          
          I've done the math. Most babysitters charge where I live charge an average of $15 per CHILD per hour. However for this estimate, let's say $15 per FAMILY per hour.
          
          $15 x 3 families is $45 a night. $45 x 4 nights a month is $135. 3 months is 12 nights. $135 x 12 nights is $1,620.
          
          If I was an average babysitter who was actually allowed to set a pay amount, I would have earned well over $1,500. Any guess on how much I've actually gotten payed? $60. This entire time I've babysat I've been payed $60. And you want to know what else? The first two months I've babysat I wasn't payed a penny. It took me begging my mom for some type of compensation for this to get payed at all.
          
          I'm not allowed to quit, so I'm essentially stuck with this.

You know, it's been a dream of mine to own a 67 Chevy impala hardtop, like the one the winchesters own. My told me that if I saved up 4000 to buy the shell of the car, as well as any engine parts and interior peices, he'd rebuild one with me. So I've been saving up for about a year now. From now on, I have a new dream. Moving out of this house as soon as possible. 
          
          I'll get my driver's permit next month, and a job as soon as I get it. I turn 18 next year. If I get a good paying job, as well as save up all of my money from here on out, I'll have my license next year and I'll be free from this place. I'll rent a car or buy a bus ticket and stay at a hotel until I redo my high-school years. I'm "homeschool-ed" which essentially means I've done zero school work since being taken out of school at 11. So I have to redo my entire high-school courses before I will apply to collage or I won't actually understand anything I learn. From there on out I'll have a scholarship to collage where I'll decide on a career. Just another year or so

Things my mom yelled at me for today
          
          1: My sister not cleaning the table (not my fault)
          
          2: My sister making the tea wrong (not my fault)
          
          3: Not doing the dishes (wasn't told to)
          
          4: Adding to many clothes in the washer
          
          5: Not washing her panties like she asked (they were washed, I just hadn't switched them over yet to the dryer. They would be dry by the time she got our of her bath.)
          
          6: For stopping my sisters from fighting (the kept fighting while playing together, cleaning, jumping on the trampoline, eating, ect. I told them many times to stop and they didn't like that.)