I am weird deal with it. 

I write what I feel when I feel it.
this is not a shock to us we are mad but we keep it to our selves precious and we never tells the hobbitsies no we would never do such a thing.
Wars are raging in our own heads and some of the lucky few put those thoughts to rest. We writers make friends with those horrors from deep in our subconscious and weave beautifully deadly, sad, joy filled and abstract stories.