So here is my rant now. Also, this is gonna start on a different note than I wanted to because WATTPAD DECIDED NOT TO SAVE 3/4 OF THE CHAPTER THAT I SPENT A MONTH ON SO NOW I HAVE TO REWRITE IT WHEN I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER HOW I WORDED IT! SO THAT'S JUST GREAT, A MONTH OF MY WORK DOWN THE DRAIN! Uggggggggghhhhhhhhh...
Ok, now into the original rant. So, there's this guy at my tech school I attend who for the last month has been acting kinda sus towards me. I'm talking he would give me money for no reason, food, follow me around like a lost puppy, and more. I've known him for like a year and a half and were friends so I don't really question half the things he does but in these cases it was really throwing me off. So, I started theorizing, asking for opinions, getting info, etc., and came to the conclusion that he probably liked me. So, being the stupid hopeless romantic I am I started to focus on it until eventually, It became one of the only things I could think about. And as this kept going on I tried pulling away but it wasn't working. Now, two days ago I had a Christmas party there and two of my friends helped me to get an answer out of him like a yes or a no. Basically, his response was "Uhhhhh - um - no?" According to my friend. Now, he's not one to stutter so that's a little sus but the only thing in my brain is the word "no." So, I'm trying to pull away again and push everything down of what I hoped would happen.
But here's the problem. This affected me for some reason. Typically this stuff doesn't and I can live normally but for some reason, I can't. I can't listen to romance music or read romantic stories, hell, I even teared up when the characters I was reading about were having so much fun together and loving each other. I almost threw my headphones and tablet across the room. So why is it now that I'm affected? I can't stand all of these people and characters being so in love and happy. I hate this, I want it to stop. Curse romance and my love life. Bye