malfoy again

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should i re-write my michael langdon fanfic?
          
          i just reread it and i wanna cringe

working on a new book alert!!!

hey guys. i don't really have anyone to talk to so i guess i'll type it on here.
          
          life has been shitty. i was sent to a hospital for a while, i had to drop out of school, and i've lost so many people. listening to billie eilish and dwelling on my past self and experiences has made me realize how much of a whore i have been acting as. sometimes you just have to learn how to get better, or how to move on. but for some reason i can't seem to.  i'm talking to an old friend and i miss what we had. and i'm rereading old conversations from past fights and it just breaks me. i'm sorry for anyone who i've bothered. i was a weird person. i was inappropriate and fucking weird. i'm trying to change now. i really am. but it's hard with my parents constantly up my ass doing shit. 
          
          i'll try and get better.
          
          
          merry christmas guys.

hey so like imma be honest- evan peters doesnt deserve to be sexualized. hes too innocent and sweet. i mean, he hates yelling. :(

the breakup was for the best. he never cared nor liked me from the beginning. four months of nonstop lying and believing false information. he broke up with me before we saw each other in person. i saw him on the 12th of this month with some friends. it would’ve been nice if he had done it after we saw each other, but it wouldn’t have made a difference either way. he never liked me. i get that we’re 14 and the relationship isn’t that deep, but it feels deep. especially since in every conversation we have with our friends, the relationship gets brought up. we all talk about it constantly at this point. i should stop talking about him, it’s not doing me any good. but i’ve come to the realization that he’s bad for my mental health. the feelings that i felt for him. just thrown all away out of nowhere. actually, let me correct myself, *feel*. the feelings that i thought he had for me? nonexistent, never did exist. i still have feelings for him. it sucks. he doesn’t like me. at least that’s what he says. everyone is convinced that he likes me, and that he’s just lying like he constantly does by saying that he doesn’t. but why would he like me after we break up? it doesn’t make sense. maybe he feels bad? no. not possible. he doesn’t feel bad, he doesn’t care, he never did. i should just give up. i tell my friends that i don’t like nor care about him, but we all know that’s a lie. i still have feelings for him. but he never did.

so he broke up with me. this hurts so bad.

i just cant believe  it was so easy for him to.. leave..
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          was the friendship one sided?
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          i can't tell him i still.. like him.
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          he just  needed to give me time.
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          but instead of giving me time he got too offended..
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          this wouldn't have happened if i just had more time.
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          but i broke his heart. i hurt him.. bad..
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          and i know i did.. but, all i want is for him to at least smile at me. it's not easy letting him go so fast. he was such a big impact on my life. i don't know if it was the same for him but it was for me. 
          
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          i just want everything to be normal again.
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          nothing is the same.
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          but, i guess it's good that he is living a good life without me.
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          because i guess i couldn't give him what he needed.
          
          thats what goes through my head currently.

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