♡ Amber ♡

I love you, all of you, and I'd never want to push you away. Thank you for staying with me, even if you hardly know who I am.

Every single time. I always question putting vents on here bc I know you all have your own problems and the last thing you need is to hear my garbled nonsense about how I hate myself. But here we are lol.
          I'm sorry.
          Ignore this.
          
          I'm so sick of this. Living. But I don't want to die. I never have. I've never had thoughts of hurting myself, and I'm not worried that I will, because I probably won't, I'm too much of a chicken lmao.
          
          But anyway. The only one I have to dump things on is my only irl friend, and she's going through a lot too; way more social & nonsocial dilemmas that I won't share bc I'm not in the position to. But I bother her so much. And she's always there for me. I feel like I'm taking up too much of her time even though she never tells me that. 
          
          I get embarrassed when I cry in therapy. I hate my stupid social anxiety. I hate that I overthink things. I hate that I'm a nervous wreck. I hate my body. I hate how annoying I am. I hate going to school. I hate that every interaction my parents have is a fight. I hate living in my dad's house. I hate living in my mom's house. I hate how strict my dad is with grades. I hate that my mom yells at me and my brothers because she's hurting. I hate being in the middle of it. I don't want to live with my parents. But I don't want to be alone. 
          
          I have a problem. I think everything I do is selfish. It's silly. That's why I don't speak up for myself. Maybe that's why I don't vent on here a lot─ I guess that makes sense. I don't want to bother you all.
          Speaking of, I'll shut up now.
          Ignore me, I'll be depressed by myself again haha

My dad shares a birthday with Ukyo

After being sick, my voice is absolutely DEMOLISHED. I sound like a dying cat─ It got me out of a presentation today but now I'll have to make it up later when my voice gets better. But it'll be awkward bc I'll be the only one doing it then T^T

If you need help with homework, pls ask me, i'd love to help however i can

HEY EVERYONE✨️✨️
          I PUBLISHED A KISS MARRY KILL CHAPTER!!
          IF YOU WANNA PLAY, THAT'D BE AWESOME!
          THERES A MIX OF A BUNCH OF FANDOMS AND YOU CAN REQUEST MORE IF I MAKE ANOTHER
          (ﾉ´ヮ´)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/369057919

https://youtu.be/iRCTuURNVCY?si=21aSa3cETQjhkauD 
          
          https://youtu.be/c1nONYfyxh4?si=TeLbWI0zRVuOeDke
          
          https://youtu.be/gLHZW3_6GRg?si=qS4yw7Geha808gLs
          
          These videos fuel me

I don't curse, so I find it crazy that my YOUNGER brothers do it when they're playing minecraft─ 
          They do it way more than I thought they did and it's a lot tbh
          Especially when my it's at my dad's house bc he's against cursing and really strict about it TᵕT

Gen Asagiri (from Dr. Stone) really reminds me of Loki. I've thought this for a long time and I think they'd get along.

I have a VERY IMPORTANT question!
          
          Lmaoo no it's not very important, but I still have a question x)
          
          Have you ever watched Tokyo Revengers?? 
          
          (Very important XD)