EilishStoriez

a big hello to any fellow readers. i know that over the past several months (and possibly years) i haven’t been active on this account. i just logged into nearly 200 notifications and i’m so glad none of that goes to my email- 
          
          i joined wattpad nearly four years ago; january 25 will mark the anniversary of my join date. all off this was roughly two months before the virus came along. thinking about time the way it is, it feels both so short ago, but at the same time an eternity. 
          
          i mainly logged on here to announce that i’m retiring from this account and that i won’t really log on again after this. it was a journey and i’m proud with some of the goals i made. i never really expected for anyone to read my stories, so to see how far i’ve grown has really boosted my confidence as a wannabe-author (even though the quality was absolute garbage). i went back a few weeks ago and read through my stories, and to put it simply: “dear god, what have i done?”
          
          when i began writing i was fourteen and finishing up my freshman year in highschool (and yes, that explains the whole “hostage” age-gap, because of my good old fourteen-year-old dumbass self). now i’m eighteen with my ass in this prison known as college, where i am internally dying inside as i’m fighting for my life to stick with psychology as my major.
          
          my alt account i’ll be rewriting these stories and making them better. way better i hope. i mean, anything’s an upgrade from what i’ve produced from here. i think it’s tagged on my page; not one-hundred percent though. i’ll be sure to check that.
          
          definitely going to slip into the cringe stage now, but i do want to thank everyone who’s supported me over the past four years. i’ve made some friends along the way, and hopefully i’ve made some people laugh at how ridiculous everything was. it’s been a fun four years, and i can’t wait to continue writing on my alt.
          
          love you guys, and i hope you all have a happy new year :)

I FOUND THE SHORT STORY WE MAKE IN THAT COMMENT SECTION!! :)

EVERYONE WHO GOES TO SEE BILLIE THIS TOUR IS GOING TO HAVE THE BEST TIME
          
          I WENT LAST NIGHT, SHE WAS FREAKING AMAZING IVE HAD LIKE 50 PCD MOMENTS ALREADY. HAVE FUN, RECORD IF YOU CAN, BE IN THE MOMENT, AND BE PREPARED TO SCREAM

I found out today — the first day returning to school from a long Christmas break — that a kid in my Spanish class took his own life. I didn’t know him very well, but it still hurts.
          
          If you can, please keep him, his family, and his friends in your thoughts. That would mean something to me, and it would mean a lot to everybody who loves him. 
          
          <3

I just published the first chapter on my alt, @EilishStoriez2 so go read it if you want to. It’s quite — interesting, to say the least. 
          
          :)

Everybody have a Happy New Year and a safe, healthy 2022! 
          
          Also final announcement. I won’t be using this profile to write anymore, but just to read. I’ll be writing on my alt account, @EilishStoriez2 so when there’s a story available there, I’ll let you know here so if you want to check it out, you can.
          
          Thanks for sticking with me in the long run and dealing with whatever I am. Goofy. Weird. Annoying. DARK. Okay, yeah, I said it. And sorry for bothering you all with constant posts
          
          Love you guys until the end❤️

BILLIES NEW HAIR YALL IM SCREAMING IM CRYING IM CLIMBING UP THE WALLS IM THROWING UP FRYING PANS LIKE WHERE DID THAT COME FROM OMGGGGGGGGG

My statistics for the day:
          
          *100 homework assignments
          *At least 50 emotional outbreaks
          *10 suicidal thoughts
          *3 trauma dumpings
          *2 mental breakdowns
          *2 hugs
          *2 crushes who will never love me
          *1 thought of doing SH
          *1 panic attack
          *1 near-driver’s permit
          *1 VERY STUPID PERIOD
          
          Today’s mood: 3/10
          (I’m going to do this approx every week; less announcements will be posted I’m slowly giving up)

Drove for the first time (for permit instruction.)
          
          I did not die. I’m still here. I’m okay. I promise❤️

Send. Help. Now.
          
          So I came out to my art class cuz half of them are a part of the LGBTQ community
          
          I just texted my mom asking her opinion about it and she said “can we talk at home?”
          
          Today might be the day I get kicked out if i do…
          
          SEND HELP NOW IDK WHAT TO DO IM AT WORK I ONLY HAVE AN HOUR BEFORE I GET HOME WHAT IF I DO GET KICKED OUT WHAT DO I DO THEN I GOT NOWHERE TO GO I LIVE TOO FAR AWAY FROM ANYONE WHO SUPPORTS IT