ElephantInTheBook

Thank you @starsandstories_ I honestly don’t know what to say. Everyday you find a way to bring a smile to my face, and everyday it is just getting bigger and bigger. I know I haven’t been very active lately, so we haven’t talked much, but I just wanted to let you know that I am still here. You brought joy into my life, and make me feel worth something. You give me a reason to wake up every morning, and know that it will all be okay. I know you sometimes feel the same way, where your life is just going downhill, we all do. Just know, I am here for you, we all are. Thank you again, Jazzy.
          	
          	Thank you to you all. I know I am a little late to give the big thanks. But I just wanted to let you all know what I am thankful for this year. I don’t deserve all you sweethearts, yet I have you. I love you all. ❤️❤️❤️

ElephantInTheBook

Thank you @starsandstories_ I honestly don’t know what to say. Everyday you find a way to bring a smile to my face, and everyday it is just getting bigger and bigger. I know I haven’t been very active lately, so we haven’t talked much, but I just wanted to let you know that I am still here. You brought joy into my life, and make me feel worth something. You give me a reason to wake up every morning, and know that it will all be okay. I know you sometimes feel the same way, where your life is just going downhill, we all do. Just know, I am here for you, we all are. Thank you again, Jazzy.
          
          Thank you to you all. I know I am a little late to give the big thanks. But I just wanted to let you all know what I am thankful for this year. I don’t deserve all you sweethearts, yet I have you. I love you all. ❤️❤️❤️

ElephantInTheBook

So I have decided something guys! If you were with me when I was in my MartinaWritez account, then you may have seen my first story I have ever written on this app. It was called, “Just Us.” I am planning on rewriting that, and I am very excited about it. Tell me your thoughts.

ElephantInTheBook

I am finally fourteen!
          
          I just wanted to give you guys an update. I am going to be very busy this week, and probably even this weekend. So the updates are going to be very slow. I will try to do as much as I can this weekend though. Hopefully next week is better, so be ready.
          
          I may be working on a new story, and I am gonna go back and re edit “Then There Was You.”

MaxtheMaxwell_xD

@ElephantInTheBook im so late but happy birthday! BTW from the puc that you psted back on act you look like 12  what are girl's secret why do they look so young? I wish i still had my baby face :3
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bluesky_bluestars

That’s a good thing to hear
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ElephantInTheBook

@TheGazillionthWriter Thank you, it had been a good day.
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ElephantInTheBook

Hello~
          
          I am really sorry, I haven’t been active much. I’m fine, it’s just I needed a break. A lot has been going on, and it felt like the right thing to do.
          
          I don’t really want to go into detail about my whole life story, so I am not going to type anything. If you want to talk to me about it, feel free to private message me. I’ll tell you what’s going on.
          
          Anyways, thank you guys for being such sweet people and caring. I am going to be back and active a lot soon.

ElephantInTheBook

@bluesky_bluestars I will keep writing. They just may be very slow updates.
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ElephantInTheBook

@TheGazillionthWriter I will, thank you!
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bluesky_bluestars

 Or typing......XD
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ElephantInTheBook

I don’t know whether to believe these people or not. Are they really still my friends? They don’t talk to me for weeks, even months at a time, then suddenly when things are going bad for them, I seem like their only shoulder to cry on. 
          
          I honestly don’t know if I should believe them, but it’s so hard for me to push people away. I feel so bad for everyone, no matter who it is. And I feel so guilty if I say something mean, or do something bad, that I immediately want to apologize. 
          
          I just don’t know who to trust anymore. It seems like everyone I let close to me betrays me.
          
          I might be taking a break from Wattpad for awhile, just to figure everything out. I’ll still be off and on at times, but my updating is probably going to be very slow. I’m sorry, I hope you guys can understand. ❤️✨

bluesky_bluestars

Ok, first of all those friends are just....uhhh!! You don’t leave your friend when they don’t need them  and then bringing them back to your side when they need you. And yeah I have those feelings where you want to apologize for every single thing we do....but just remember that WE AREN’T RESPONSIBLE FOR THEIR HAPPINESS AND WE ARE ONLY RESPONSIBLE FOR OURS. And maybe asking them and talking with them is great when solving the problem....but it really depends on who that person might be and what their personality is
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RiaWulf

@ElephantInTheBook 
            
            My darling,, just ask yourself this :  Why are you allowing them to come to you "just when you're apparently good enough" but then why do you beat yourself up due to their idiotic behaviour?
            
            My dear that's not fair,, at all !
            You're ending up bullying yourself,, no wonder you feel so depressed
            
            Just please remember ~ You can't heal in the same environment that you got "sick"
            
            I know you're afraid to be alone and guilty to say anything bad (trust me I really do I've been through it myself)
            But keep in mind,, they are NOT your friends when they aren't there for you if you need them most OR even if they are the ones making you feel that way,, definitely NOT YOUR FRIENDS
            
            Please p.m when you want to talk :)
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