Yes, your last post is sad. The idea of not having you around, even if it's not as frequently as it was, is sad - but what you're doing, each step you're taking to reach your dream, to get what you want is great news.
Your personal site is awesome, I'm happy we'll be able to read your stories and to be in touch with you.
Best wishes with everything, good luck...I'm sure you will get to live your dream, to reach your goal! Congrats for your new site Eddie, wish you a huge success!