ELLA

@JEONwantskim  I will miss you too darling. Just be alright and study well ❤️❤️

@Kimv3103 let me do my research and then I'll tell you 

@Kimv3103 @Ella_bounded

@Myteahyungkook9597 I'm perfectly perfect sweetheart.. you're so sweet.. you care about me. I was just busy with work..this one is my real account ❤️

@Ikktara good job dear.  I'm proud of you ❤️

@Ikktara means alot Ella.. and yes my chin is up and crown sits on top .. and well I don't need nobody to be loved .. am enough for myself .. that's something I learnt from past and I never make him the villain .. but nor he is the hero in my story .. now simply an side Character lol ‍♀️

@Ikktara     Sweetheart, first
            ..come here, let me wrap you in the biggest virtual hug. You really let your heart speak, and that takes guts. Opening up about your one sided love? That’s not weakness
            that’s bravery in its finest form.
            
            Unrequited love.. it’s like writing a masterpiece and never hitting ‘send.’ You feel everything.. give everything.. and still walk away with empty hands.
            
            And I get it...he wasn’t cruel and you weren’t desperate. You made edits you poured your feelings into art...girl that’s not obsession..that’s DEVOTION. And trust me, not everyone can love like that.
            
            But here’s the truth
             love isn’t about getting claimed...it’s about how much you're willing to release. If they don’t choose you back, it’s not your loss. It just means your heart was too rich for the wrong soul. Period.
            
            So chin up, crown straight. You felt deeply...and then you moved forward. And that’s power, babe. That’s the kind of strength that breaks cycles.❤️❤️❤️❤️
            
            (Also no, Ella’s not writing poetry now, lol. This queen is too busy surviving Wattpad errors and dodging heartbreaks.)
            

And after our 12th .. till 2023 December.. I was always with him through chats and insta .. I just wanted to b his frnd and maybe I considered him as my best frnd.. which he never did .. so when u started realising that.. all I would ever be is just an frnd in need .. be it for his gym edits or sscool studies .. and before I moved on .. I kinda tried to hold onto something .. and gave him hints that yeah if u want acknowledged me .. then it's ur loss .. I won't be back and by the start of 2024 .. I made this Resolution.. of letting him go .. and by the end of 2024 .. I did .. I hardly talked to him .. I dont even think about him anymore .. but he is a good human being .. he never hurted me .. he was clear from the start that no we can't be anything ever .. more than frnds .. it was just me and my not so required feelings.. and till date I am an proud single since the day I born .. an totally loyal to my bts .. 
            Actually I was kinda in a heartbreak when I became ARMY .. so yeah even before I knew .. I was in my healing journey .. and now after years of not being loved and just giving nd giving love .. it's Time to live myself .. and am proud of who I am now and still making myself better for myself .. I just stop being in love with anyone after him .. ofc not tannies .. I love them way too much .. 

I told him .. atleast keep the Arts.. I made it just for him .. nd he agreed .. but he gave me back the letter .. saying he never take gifts from anyone .. and I said "okay .. but I wanted to give you an gift .. it's fine if u doesn't want it .. but I would not take it back" So he tried to convince me .. and well who was I.. all I ever got was rejection .. so I never gave him another gift .. except for the other times I made Video edits of him .. like I was an editor once too .. but yeah that happened 

So there was this one time on his bday .. it was my first time actually wishing him .. and probably the last celebrating with him .. coz my home was really far from my school and his home was near the school.. so basically after my 12th .. I saw him just once .. and its been more than 2 years .. yeah hack to his bday .. I am an hopeless romantic .. and well I made him 2 Arts  of his .. one was painting and one was on an black paper with his portrait in white .. and wrote an handmade letter .. and well gave it to him on his day.. and well I waited for the lunch break so that I can give it to him secretly when others would be not in class .. and I told him to FREAKING OPEN IT WHEN HE REACH HOME .. BUT THAT BOY HAD TO OPEN IT IN FRONT OF EVERYONE ...!! that too in front of our history teacher .. I was an first bencher .. so he was .. his seat was on the 1st bench of my left row .. and idk why .. but sir has kept me standing on my seat for some reason I don't remember.. but that boy had to open my gift right at that moment .. ofc he did it hidden way .. but I could see his face and reactionnn .. which I didn't.. my ears were litrally ringing with ebarsement .. I  couldn't help but just watch him and my heartbeat has skyrocketed !! SO moving on .. next day .. I asked him how he liked it .. and well .. there is this heart breaking part .. she wanted to return the gifts .. at that moment I just wanted to dissappear