Elle

Bruh... I just want someone who can share my affections and not betray me. is that so bad? Even trying to read fan fiction to help my level of hurt isn't helping :( like.... it feels so fucking evil and embarrassing really. We're cuddling and I'm getting tickled avoiding his kisses and suddenly I get the 'girly pop' text. 

Not me getting cheated on again. Biter on the loose yall! hope he gets what's coming to him. 

Went to the club & a random ass man held my arms down to eat my face. From now on, any time a man kisses me without my permission is automatically counted as a zombie in my head and will indeed be getting slapped/punched. Talk about traumatizing. My lip is literally bruised from when he sucked them into his mouth, I wanna gag. Never have I felt so overpowered & violated. 

I called my bank, the lady on the phone yelled at me, I cried,,, She ended up telling me to find someone else to bank with & that they were sending me a check of my money. They didn't even explain how my account was 'suspicious' or let me dispute it?? 

Am I reading the most embarrassing smut of all time... yes, yes I am.... OH MY GAWD 

Yesterday I bought my prom dress ITS BEAUTIFUL, got my first car, ALSO BEAUTIFUL,,, Today is Pedro Pascal's birthday (love him) and I played La Loteria w my best friend- It's been a beautiful weekend 

I feel like I'm in an alternate reality, I told my dad a few days ago how I wanted to become an actress, he called me a waste of time... the very next day he comes in my room acting excited about my decision and talks about how he'll support me to success,,, I'm so confused- he's even buying me books and looked up which courses would be best for me to major in at my University regarding it 

This dude... I spent so much time telling him I didn't want a relationship and how I didn't like him but he wouldn't take no for an answer! Now here I am telling him, again, no- because he said "you know.. I fix broken things, maybe I can fix you too" like bitch? I just said I didn't want to talk to you... GO AWAY. 
          
          Not even attractive enough to play that game with me  sir is skin and bones w pubic hair on his face calling it a mustache. 

This is like my new Twitter, too scared for future jobs to see my rants so I'm running here LMFAO like.... they'd never think to look for me on Wattpad, if I ever become famous (psh fat chance) I won't have to worry about mini fans being like 'you posted this, why?'..  also won't have to worry about stalkers knowing all the details.. scary enough seeing them screenshot their lock screen and I seeing it be a picture of myself  ALSO not sure how I'd be able to deal w it if it became more frequent, maybe I'd eventually be okay with it knowing I actually did something rather than it only happening because I'm a teenage girl.. 

So I've been accepted into university... Yay. happened a few months ago, but I didn't realize how stressed I was gonna be at the idea of it as time started getting closer. Talked to my mom yesterday to inform her how I truly don't want to go to traditional college. It's so expensive, and not all of it actually helps with the goals I have set for myself. Told her how I want to go to art school for acting... that engineering isn't my passion. She told me to sleep on it as if it hadn't been keeping me up at night for the past few months. But I'll do so and do my best to persuade her how much I really need her support in this before I tell my dad. These next few months are going to be a shit show for me, I already know it. I'm so scared for my future.