Emmalise.P

(part one to 2020 goals)
          But this 2020 I'm going to be productive, work on loving myself more, work on my eating. This year I feel like I have a better chance of accomplishing these many goals than I did last year since, I'm going to rehab on January 26th (I believe), I have real friends that love me, their not just using me. 2020 will be an amazing year for me, my friends and family, my readers, 5SOS, BTS, PM, Harry Styles, Hayley Kiyoko, Taemin, and all the other groups I stan and my friends stan.
          
          Thank you friends and family for helping me. Thank you my first love for breaking my heart and showing me I can still love myself and give myself while loving the other and not letting them hurt me, but also for showing me that I do need to keep searching for the right one.
          Thank you to all the girls who I fought or bullied me, I learned to love you guys too because you guys taught me to have patience and understand that you guys are probably going through some things as well. 
          
          Happy 2020 guys! 

My 2020 goals include; completing at least one book, get 200 reads, keep my friendships, work on my eating disorders.
          
          2019 was shit. That's legit all I have to say. I went from self harming legit new years at 12:00am waiting for the ball to drop to cut. To being in my dream highschool being bullied and harassed. 
          
          The only things that were good through my 2019 were, getting 180 on my first ever book on wattpad, sadly I stupidly accidentally deleted the first chapter trying to edit a new chapter and needed to start all over because I lost all of my reads. Had my first first love, got my heartbroken because I was scared of getting hurt so I broke up with him. Lost 45 pounds and for the first time in 2 years I was below 200. But that's because I have eating disorders. 
          
          Really the only thing thats truly good that hasn't turned out bad is coming "out of the closet" about being a BTS stan. Ive done this with all of my fav groups, it took me till 2018 to come out about loving 5SOS and I've been with them since Luke's first ever video on YouTube.

Hello my smart beautiful queen

My new JIMIN fanfic...super excited and proud. Cant wait to hear your responses. Remember to add the book in your library if you want updates on it!! Love you all!
          https://my.w.tt/jMo0ITJRO0

RIP Sulli, and all the other angels that have left us this year and the others. Please be respectful and think before you act. This situation should be a learning lesson for cyber bullying and just bullying in general. 
          
          It hurts to see that such a talented and beautiful women took her life over some hatred filled people that took it upon themselves to hurt another person. They most likely are hurting too. 
          
          It does not give someone the right to hurt another EVEN of they are hurting too.
          
          If you feel like someone is going through a ruff patch or know they are going through something, let them know you are able to be someone they can lean. If you need someone to lean on I'm here and I have twitter, Instagram aswell. My DMs are open to everyone. 
          
          Also if your going through something and you think you cant take anymore struggles or loads of shit on your back, dont push yourself because that's not helping yourself and you should be your number 1. 
          
          Love you all and  #TPWK
          
          Twitter: Lemma_Pemmings
          Instagram: ghostofyou_carolina 

I have 4 chapters done for 'Forever Is A Promise' so be excited for all new chapters for FOUR DAYS STRAIGHT 

IM SO FUCKING PISSED!! THIS DAMN COMPUTER IS SO SLOW IT FUCKING LOST ALL THE WORK I DID FOR "The Lover" LIKE BOI BYE THIS IS SO AWFULL!!! I SPENT 3 HOURS WRITING THE SHIT SO I COULD MAKE UP FOR THE LOST TIME LIKE I AM....UHHHHGGG

ok so I'm only going to be working on 'The Lover' for now, all the other books are on pause for the rn

I UPDATED THE BOOK https://www.wattpad.com/story/167417142

HEY! so i think i might be Deleting all of my stories except for 'I Fall Apart' and 'The Lover' because the other stories...welp i lost inspiration i am having HUGE inspo for this new book im calling 'Valntyne' its pretty good i think so yeah love you all. And the only reason im deleting the other ones is because welp i changed and i want a fresh start, im also going to be rewriting 'The Lover' because im just very disappointed in it right now.