OMG! I love everything about your description! I like the fact that you would like to make a change in the world and so I want to encourage you to keep wanting that k? Because making a difference can be a big thing or a tini-tiny thing ok? The smallest things makes the things you do worth while ok? Plz don't think of this as weird, even though it might just be, but I just wanted to tell you to keep wanting to change the world for the better. Sometimes being different is better then fitting in.