Hey guys. I'm sorry I haven't been on in a long time. My antidepressant has been working but it wears off very quickly and we have to up the dose a lot. And so I have been feeling more down. Again I'sorry. And my dad's friend just killed himself, and I grew up with him, he is like family to me. Another one of my dad's friends it was like my second dad has a certain type of cancer, and is it going to live that long even though even though he's in his seventies. It's going teams not going that great for me. But I'm have more energy now and feeling better than I did, so I'm going to try to update. Love you all