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Okay so uh I don't want to admit this, I might be taking a hiatus because my family has been getting several complaints against us and it's really making me nervous that they're trying to force us out the community by eviction and the complaints have been increasing this past year so I'm sorry for not uploading these past few months.... I've just been balancing on a knifes tip because me and my mom swear the HOA person hates us specifically since we moved here nine years ago. I'm really sorry for anyone who was looking forward to a new chapter it's just I'm in the trenches right now mentally, domestically, physically because my factory resets have been happening a lot more frequently. So uh let me clarify nine years ago I started to getting fainting spells for no clear medical reason.
          
          Sometimes they're brief sometimes I look like I'm in the Alaskan bush during winter butt ass naked with how bad I shake, other times my body has completely shut down and I'd come to on the floor and just get right back up I've gotten hurt before because of this I'm mean I literally have the Nike logo on my right palm I've probably got a scar on the back of my head from falling and splitting it open but hey at least that happened when I was in a behavioral ward of the local hospital.
          
          I know it sounds like I'm constantly making excuses for lack of content but I take my health mental and physical very seriously because I may not want to live but I'm not keen to die either. I'm human and I've been going through shit all my life just this past year has been really rough on me.
          
          So I'm sorry for letting everyone down who did enjoy no pain so little time I'm not giving up on it just need time to figure everything out I know no one is really gonna read all of this but I just wanted to be honest with the ten of you guys especially the original author who I adopted the fic idea from I really feel like I let them down majorly I'll see you when I see. Maybe I have a laptop by then my luck I wont

So it's uh been a minute and gonna be honest depression has been kicking my ass the past two months. Doesn't help I fucked up on the paperwork I had to fill out for the appointment last month tried to get that resolved which I haven't been able to. Had some meds changed yesterday so maybe I'll pull all nighters like I used to won't know till next week, wrote my doctor to see if I can get blood work testing done to find out if I'm anemic or have a sub category of anemia. 
          
          But uh yeah thats basically why nothing has been uploaded lack of motivation and more pressing matters.

Little update I haven't forgotten about the story just been focused or as focused as I can be on irl stuff I have an appointment in less than two weeks that I really can't miss and have been trying to find a ride to because I don't have a car and depending on how that goes I'll probably to mentally drained as I usually am from socializing in a formal/clinical level and shortly after that is my birthday which I don't have anything planned yet but that might change probably won't but I might just take brake from the Internet that day and focus on my guitar skills which I keep neglecting and snapped string for the first time in fuck if I can recall but yeah just wanted to give an update even if you guys don't read/reply to these

So uh been a minute but I was able to write some more stuff for NP,SLT. I'm not done with the chapter and I'm not happy with where I took the fight scene near the end so I'm going to rewrite that but besides that I do apologize for the lack of a chapter it'll probably happen again just be patient with me.
          
          This is the first story I've written and I'm still self conscious about my writing style even with the fact I've been writing for 3 years... in 4 months it'll actually be 4 years. But I digress I'm still getting used to a story telling format being good with words doesn't necessarily help with that I also hope you guys can ignore some of the spelling mistakes I've noticed I made a few in the first three chapters all of them are minor imo. I'm go back and copy them from the app and run em through my spell checking doc I'm not sure why I forgot to do that in the first place but I'm human a deeply flawed human but I've learned from my mistake.

So uh imposter syndrome has been hitting me harder than the time my dad dropped me on my head when I was five(true fact btw). Mostly because a close friend said I'm a talented writer, I don't believe that like at all despite the amount of people who have said the same thing about me. So yeah sorry about the lack of an update for no pain, so little time I haven't even worked on the next chapter apart from the brief time after getting back into my Gmail account.

So I doubt you guys read this but update. Got a new yet old phone got back into my main email account. And I did work a little bit on the next chapter.... But I've um been getting into playing guitar after like 18 years and well it's um kinda taken priority but I'll get back to writing soon might be today. The fight scene so far feels like flame broiled garbage but I might just be harsh on myself for no reason. 
          
          So yeah brief update tl:dr broke old phone got new phone getting used to it and have been getting distracted by playing a guitar again will try to focus on no pain, so little time.

So uh I broke my phone and don't have access to my google docs which is where I write everything because I don't have access to my gmail account forgot the password google is being fuck all in terms of helping with account recover. "You account recovery request was cancelled because you're still signed on a device use the device you're signed in on to reset your password." Gee fucking wiz if I'm using a back up email adresss to reset my main account password odds are the device that account is signed in on is fucking borked beyond hell. So I'll try to figure something out entil this mess is resovled. I'm sorry for the inconvenience I caused by letting anger choke me.

So I'm gonna take a break a bit till Wednesday because I just found out a Friend of mine died back in November. 
          
          I have made progress on the next chapter of no pain so little time but I'm gonna focus on creating an ode to my friend post it in words of a broken soul maybe try to work on chapter four of NPSLT but no guarantee of it sorry. 
          
          For those whose enjoyed it so far I just really need some time to process the news and shit but I'd really appreciate feedback on where you guys think I could improve with NPSLT as I've written for 3 years now but not in a way of writing a story so I'm a little self conscious on my actual story telling abilities and writing/style of writing.

Chat I think I'm cooked so obviously I've mentioned in no pain, so little time that you'd be using kali and capoeira as a fighting style..... after some research kali has few named moves and is counter attack heavy so they just have lines or numbers for attacks which at the lowest is 5, some schools it 12, and some it's fucking 72 different lines so fuck me I guess. I pick the hardest martial arts to be interested in just because they've always been cool to me. Thankfully I was able to find a list of capoeira moves which a lot of them are hard hitting and a few are similar to some of the moves you'd find in judo. So I'm going to stick with capoeira as the main style and use kali for when it close combat capoeira does have some hand moves but it's mostly a kick oriented fighting style. 
          
          Also should I add a bio to the story? like yeah I should but I don't really feel it's necessary  outside of like what I think the characters outside of you should look like and even then I could probably do it with in the chapters if I can that is as I have no computer just my phone.

Gonna be long so buckle up and bare with me yeah? Alright so I'm gonna be honest for those who have read the two chapters of No Pain, So Little Time. Updates are gonna be sporadic for a lot of things I've discussed in words from a broken soul. I have adhd and few other things that affect my memory/perception of time not to mention I wasn't a fond writer in school. But I will try to make it work because it's a story I, no we all enjoyed before I adopted it so feed back is welcome with it because I've only written about my life and sometimes I feel like I'm making chapters drag on without a whole lot happening story wise it's literally the first fanfiction I've written to get two chapters let alone posted on here. Yes things are very different yet they're some what similar to the original..... 
          
          I know I'm not good with my words irl but when I'm listening to music and writing the words just bleed out a world lost in the world of another's voice and lyrics, I've openly listed what music I've been listening to as of late in the most recent chapter. So I'm curious if you guys would like me to link the Playlist above each chapter, so when action scenes eventually happen you can have some heavy or bitter sweet music yes most are in a foreign language but music can just be felt you don't need to understand the words to vibe with it. Obviously before a fight scene happens I'd list what song to play same with bittersweet moments. Also thank you Nevermore again for letting me adopt this story but also just once again for being a talented writer thank you for all the memories you given us as fans may whatever happenw to you after your webtoon/shadows of our end may it be positive.