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          I'm so mad at my bff's boyfriend rn, he's such an ass
          
          So basically I was in class when he asked me to meet him in the storage room. And I actually left class for him. Then he told me about how his bf had been acting strange earlier, so naturally I went to check on him. 
          
          He was fucking  smoking outside the fence when I got to him.
          
          And my bff and him had a huge fight about his smoking habits a few weeks ago and he promised he'd stop, because my bff was crying bcuz of his trauma and it wasn't a pleasant sight so he agreed to stop.
          
          I can't believe he went behind my bff's back and still smoked. Like, that's so messed up man, he knows why my bff hates it when anyone smokes, but  he still did it. And he says he ''loves'' my bff like nothing before. Yeah right.
          
          So we had a huge yelling match out there and another student caught us and reported us (fucking snitch) so I now have a stain on my once clean resume is tainted because I have detention for the next week. I can only hope they don't withdraw my scholarship.
          
          Like, how am I even supposed to look my bff in the eye now, knowing what I know about his boyfriend? And it's really hard for me to digest the logic behind his boyfriend's smoking, especially after how they CLEARLY love each other to bits.
          
          Anyways, I'm in a pretty bad mood rn and I really need to party and loosen up but there's this thing called Final Examinations that's causing me sleepless nights so byee for now thank you for reading my rant

''The Marked Nanny''' has been updated!

he played me. coffee guy played me.

GIRL I GOT HIS NUMBER

It's really funny to me, when people with depression deal with the weight of the world on their shoulders silently while others sob about who lost how many followers on instagram and who cheated on who at a party. It's always seemed to childish to me, to see other people fret over their high school reputation that lasts for about four years of their life. It's like a four year old happy that they've got candy but- it's gone after five minutes or so. Gone. Finished. Over. 
          
          It's so pointless to care about things like your outfits for the next day, or how you're going to make your entrance in class, how you're going to say ''present''. It all ends eventually. 
          
          I'm sorry for ranting this out there, but it seemed really heavy on me today. Please guys, my advice is to look at the bigger picture, don't give too much relevance to your rep in High School because it's not going to matter soon. Sure, it's a huge step in your life, where you understand where you stand in society, and where you place your boundaries, it shows what kind of person you are and what you're capable of. Not to mention the wild stories you might get to tell others, but that's it. The bigger picture is college, getting a stable life, figuring out what to do next while having fun with friends and family, balancing your social relations with financial ones. This is to all the younger ones out there, please, think before you do something, don't do anything you'll regret too much afterwards and please, figure out what to do after high school while you're in high school, don't keep it for senior year or 12th grade, because you have more important things to do, like feeling positive, knowing you can do what you love to do and what you want to do. Goodbye for now!

Updated my new book!

I released a new bxb book! check it out if you want to

Guys...
          
          
          I GOT MY ACCEPTANCE LETTER  TO U OF T OMG GUYS I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU omg you guys, 
          
          Whoever is reading this have given me so much strength in the past year, I've developed so much thanks to you guys, sure- there had been some times where I wasn't sure I would make it but you guys helped me through, along with my bff and his bf
          
          I'm so happy, I can't begin to express it in words or ways, but I just wanted to thank you all, who have helped me through the hard times.
          
          I don't plan on leaving wattpad anytime soon, but I wanted to let you guys know that my announcements may be even less frequent than than are now, but I'll most probably be updating my works as much as I can
          
          Once again, I love you all so much for helping me through, even though very few of you are reading this and even more few are going to answer, just know that I'm so grateful for whatever support you've given me

I was looking through the photo album of my brother and he looks soo gayy with his friend like damm brother, why was I not told of anything and when I met up with his friend a few days ago he looked so goddammed SAD like...as if the loss of my brother is still fresh like there was definitely something fishy going on between them

Guys...so much happened in the past week and half
          
          I turned seventeen
          
          I slapped my bitchass stepmom (I regretted that deeply afterwards)
          
          I got drunk
          
          I'm no longer a virgin
          
          I'm getting so many readers
          
          I'm no longer Asexual but I'm still Aromantic
          
          My bff and his bf love each other
          
          SO. MANY. FIRST. TIMES.